Some time ago, I posted a thread called Improper Handling of Apparently False Prophet?. Since that time there have been a couple of developments.
Whether or not it's foolish, I've become close friends with his oldest daughter. I believe she is a true believer, devout to God. She has a passion for God that is unlike what you see in the church today.
The fear I had mentioned in the previous thread, the uncomfortable feeling, has turned more into resentment, I suppose is the word. I realized being afraid was no good and instead channeled all that energy into another emotion. I guess you could call it resentment or anger or spite. The exchanges him and I had involved anger on his part, but I really think he has forgiven me. I, however, find it difficult to get over the fear and resentment I have toward him. Seeing him in person elicits these emotions out of me. I don't like confrontations of any sort, and we did have a written confrontation (it didn't involve swearing or threats, but I could tell he was displeased). And I guess because of that, I've had this irrational fear and resentment. Whenever he shows up at my workplace, where his daughter also works, I generally stay away from him. I don't even like being around him.
Before the events in my previous thread happened, I had added him and his daughters as friends on Facebook. I still have them as friends on there. If I were to defriend him it would cause drama. Invariably he would find out and not only would it put more strain between him and I, but also between myself and his daughters. Who I am friends with. This would possibly result in me losing friendships. Especially with the oldest daughter, which would hurt quite a bit. Luckily he doesn't get on Facebook very much and we don't really interact.
He posted something on Facebook a little while ago, which has me concerned. He's quite introverted, and his status shows that he feels quite disconnected from the world, like nobody talks to him. He's been going through depression as the result of the trouble he's had with people and churches over the years and this lack of communication. He's curious to know why nobody is talking to him. He also said something in the status that worries me. I think he is implying that if nobody at least tells him why nobody is interacting with him, he might go deeper into depression. To me that sounds like he may become self-destructive. Look, personal feelings aside, nobody deserves to sink to a point where they are detached, self-destructive, or suicidal. I don't interact with him on Facebook because, well, I'm not very fond of him. But I think I'd be willing to forego my personal feelings and at least Like some of the stuff he puts on there (he makes plenty of YouTube videos, and some are actually pretty good). Last thing he needs and the last thing his daughters need is for him to become mentally unstable.
As I've said in the linked thread above, the reason I don't try to completely disassociate with him is because we live in a small town. Two of his daughters work where I work. He lives maybe 8 blocks from my house. He is unavoidable. In a few months I will be leaving for university and maybe then it would be more feasible.
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Originally Posted by Protective Angel
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