Doing God's Will

[thingsyetseen]

This post may be very long because I am extremely confused and may tend to ramble so please forgive me. First of all let me state that I was raised by

my Grandfather, a minister, thus raised in church. I've been through a lot of things in life and give ALL PRAISES to God for being where I am in my life, I'm eternally grateful. I guess things started to get a little questionable at the beginning of this year. I am a 44 year old single mother and God has allowed me to be in a position to return back to school and take care of my three beautiful children . But here lately, I've been having this strong

desire to start reading my bible. Let me explain I don't get on my knees and pray as I should, but I do try on all accounts to live a decent non sinful life.

But I'm telling you I keep having these overwhelming feelings and in my mind I keep hearing read your bible and draw closer to God. These urges come and

go but each time they return they are stronger. I think I'm afraid because somewhere inside of me I believe my calling may be in ministry and counseling

but I'm so afraid. I guess I'm comfortable trying to live right and thinking that there may be some room for error. I believe I'm afraid of the demands and

the test that I may have to endure if I made the decision to get back to my bible and start praying and move closer to God. My life is basically stress and

drama free and I believe that once you start to grow closer in your walk with God you will be subjected to certain, I guess you can say, tests of faith. I

woke up this morning because I had, I guess what you could call a dream, but I was literally conscious during this dream and going back and forth with my

self. In this dream something was telling me I need to start reading my word and I was questioning why, but in my dream I was being directed to follow

God and to love Him like I love no other and all of the things that have been a concern to me lately would be taken care of as long as I read and kept

His word, and love Him like no other. Also in this dream I was told that there are people that He needs to place in my life, but essentially He cant, until

I do as I'm told, which is confusing within itself because I live in a new city and I don't really know anyone here except for the few people I talk to in

class occassionally. It's basically me and my children I haven't even dated for three years, so again that part was very confusing because I don't

necessarily put myself in a position to meet new people Like I stated I was conscious of this entire dream so I cant say I woke up, but I looked over

and I mentally kept repeating, I have to love him like I love no other. Immediately I began to feel conflicted and my thoughts turned to writing and

documenting my process of drawing closer to God. Needless to say I'm very confused, so any suggestions would be greatly appreciated

Thank You All,
Peace and Blessings

PS, I hope this post makes sense as I tried not to make it too long and I was trying not to ramble!

[Dani H]

Submit to God, yield to Him, and trust Him to take care of you and your children, no matter what.

You WILL have regrets later if you don't.

Love Him like no other. He's worth it. He's worth everything.

[Indueseason]

Welcome the forums thingsyetseen

It sounds like God has given you a personal invitation to draw close to Him! I'm not sure what's confusing about that, but I would be excited about what He wants to do in your life, and through you! Why not take the time to read your bible and pray, spending time with Him everyday, and let Him move in your life and reveals Himself?

blessings to you

[Michelle71]

How many count the cost?

Luk 14:28 For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it?

Luk 14:33 So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.

Or the rewards?

Luk 6:23 Rejoice ye in that day, and leap for joy: for, behold, your reward is great in heaven: for in the like manner did their fathers unto the prophets.

Or the warnings?

Luk 6:24 But woe unto you that are rich! for ye have received your consolation.
Luk 6:25 Woe unto you that are full! for ye shall hunger. Woe unto you that laugh now! for ye shall mourn and weep.
Luk 6:26 Woe unto you, when all men shall speak well of you! for so did their fathers to the false prophets.

Heb 3:7 Wherefore (as the Holy Ghost saith, To day if ye will hear his voice,
Heb 3:8 Harden not your hearts, as in the provocation, in the day of temptation in the wilderness:
Heb 3:9 When your fathers tempted me, proved me, and saw my works forty years.
Heb 3:10 Wherefore I was grieved with that generation, and said, They do alway err in their heart; and they have not known my ways.

[thingsyetseen]

Thank You Dani H, I did get my bible out and I really didn't know where to began but I felt I should begin in the beginning of the New Testament. I'm going to read a little everyday and take things day by day and allow Him to prepare me for whatever it is He is trying to get me to see and do!!! I'm just going to seek Him out and I know that everything else will fall in place. Thank you for your support and please keep me in prayer!!

[thingsyetseen]

Thank You for the scriptures Michelle71. I needed some scriptures to refer to. How many count the cost was what I really needed...Thank You! Peace and Blessings.

[thingsyetseen]

Thank You Indueseason, I took that step of pulling out my bible and reading His word and made a commitment to do just that, spend time with Him daily..I know with certainty He has kept and carried me my entire life, so I just really can't figure out why I'm so fearful..Maybe I'm afraid I will let Him down..but I know I'm going to continue on this path and see where it leads! Thanks again for your support. Peace and Blessings.

[jayne]

When God is tap-tap-tapping on your heart trying reveal something to you in whatever format He chooses, count that as an EXCITING privilege!

Stop - stop - STOP with the "what if's" and do what He tells you to do. You'll be so much more at peace that way and in a place of obedience. At this point, all He is requiring of you is getting into the Word and soaking it in. You can allow Him to work out the details later. Today, read.