I need to pray more about myself. I come from a long line of abusive in every way drunk family. Some of us love eachother though. By the grace of GOD only. Most people in my family were tormented and abused even as children, i was as well. I tried to kill myself quit a few times. My last attempt i was in the i.c.u. and my dr said that they odds of me surviving were SLIM. But for some reason the LORD didn't let that happen. Then after that i was diagnosed with tons of mental disablities, put in a mental institution, and on many psych meds which i am on to this day. Sorry you have anxiety problems as well! The reason your being so kind and i appreciate it is because you know where i'm coming from! It must be nice to live a life with a healthy mind and family having no big problems. People without spiritual or mental problems shouldn't judge us so much. They have no way of knowing what we go through. Thank you Beth. Your kindness and understanding are a blessing and relife to me. Some MUSLIMS are more friendly to me than MOST of my own brudda's and sisda's in CHRIST are!