Re: Trying to Get Back
Joshqa, I hope you will go here and see this thread. You and this other man seem to have a lot in common!
I must say though, I was stunned by the amount of "I's, me's, my's, etc. in your post. The Bible says if a man is to have friends, he must show himself friendly! (Proverbs 18:24) A long time ago I heard this, and really this does apply to you and your situation...
JOY means this:
When was the last time you didn't put YOU first, and you visited someone who was sick or offered a helping hand to someone who needed it?
When was the last time you offered friendship and fellowship to someone?
When was the last time you fed someone who might need food?
When was the last time you thought of others and THEIR needs and not your own?
Believe me, when you can begin to do this, you could be the only Bible some folks will ever read! Don't you know that self-pity can cripple a person? In fact, you can drown yourself in self-pity. And that's what you are doing...wallowing in a lake of self-pity. You have a 'poor me' mentality.
Why not try to actually be the helping hand that someone desperately needs? Or to be the one who visits and prays for a sick person? Or a shoulder for someone else to cry on? After all, Jesus said:
37 .....Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
38 This is the first and great commandment.
39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
Perhaps you are only robbing your own self of JOY by not attending church! If its the right church, THAT is where you hear about the hurting people who could use a phone call or a visit or a card, letting them know that you care. That is, if you really do.
But, if you REALLY want to be 'loved', then show love to others.
My favorite scripture: Malachi 3:16
"Then they that feared the LORD spake often one to another: and the LORD hearkened, and heard it, and a book of remembrance was written before him for them that feared the LORD, and that thought upon his name!" (Every time we speak of the Lord, or even THINK of him--its written down in a book of remembrance!)