This life is a waiting room. It's uncomfortable because all we seem to have are uncomfortable chairs and vain magazines to read. But behind that door is eternal bliss.
If you must die...die to self. Sacrifice the rest of your life to gain blessings in the life to come. Really. Pick a date and end the life you currently have.
Give up your care to feel "good"
Give up your concern with money
Sacrifice your life in loving others
Make it as miserable and meek as it can get and on top of that...have the nerve to smile about it! Might as well die to emotions too.
You were wanting to end it anyway...might as well make it count for something.
As many of you know I go through demonic oppression and last year about 4 times I tried to kill myself. What scares me the most is I didn't even think to die to self. I didn't even think "Well, since I don't care for this life anyway I might as well use it for something"
No, what I was thinking was: "I don't feel good and I want to feel good...now"
God very much does care for you. You have no idea. This is a blessing that many people don't experience.