Although Iíve been a Christian for while, it was only recently that I gave myself to God and told him that I no longer care about what I want in life, that I only want what he wants for me. That I only want whatever plan he has for me. I fully trust him. Iíve been asking him over and over what he wants for me, and what he wants me to do with a particular problem I have at the moment. I havenít had an answer yet. Well, I havenít heard an answer yet. Maybe I just canít hear him?
Thereís something thatís worrying me though. Since I donít know what he wants for me, how do I know if Iím doing the right things? How do I know Iím not inadvertently going against his plans? How do I know the decisions I make donít interfere with his plan for me? What if I inadvertantly block his plans for me?
Last night before I went to sleep I prayed and asked God all of this. I told him that I want to follow his plan, but not knowing what it is, I might inadvertently go against it. I told him all my concerns.
Because I have to get up early in the mornings for work and Iím terrible at doing so, one of the many alarms I use to wake up is the timer on my TV. I have it set to a channel that plays various Christian church services early in the morning.
This morning I woke up to the TV blaring away, and started listening to what a preacher was saying. He was talking all about how God has a plan for us all and that we should just trust him. That heís trying to carry out his plans for all of us. I was half asleep so I canít remember the specifics of what he said, but I heard the general message.
Iím not sure if the timing of this was just coincidence, but I think God may have been sending me a message.
Should I just stop worrying about whether or not Iím following Godís plan because as long as I trust him, heíll make it happen regardless of how much I screw things up?