I think i'm possesed

[Unify]

I'm going to be honest with you. I don't really believe in god, or even satan at that. I don't even know why i'm saying this. But I feel as if i'm possed by something.

My Background:
I used to be a christian. My uncle actually owns his own church, and I used to go there when I was younger. But I slowly started giving up on god, and now I don't go anymore, and don't believe.

Whats going on now:
I started get mood swings, at one minute I can be happy, the other I can pissed off.

I have random impulsive behavior, many times I would just be randomly angry at my mom or my brother, and I would snap at them. My mom began to notice this.

I get random thoughts of suicide. And it's weird because I don't want to kill myself, but I still get the thoughts.(I actually told myself If I ever decide to kill myself, i'd rather rob a bank, who knows maybe ill get rich.)

No dreams. I'm not sure if this is common with demon possession, but I don't get dreams at all. No bad or good dreams. When I was younger I would lucid dream and sleepwalk a lot, but eventually it all just stopped.

Another weird thing is, my little cousin wants to be a preacher when he grows up. And for some reason I grew to hate him. I really don't understand why but every time I see him, I want to beat him.

My Mom:
My mom is a strong christian. She told me when she was younger she was able to predict the death of some people, and she saw death. She told me her grandmother was dieing, and she saw death standing near her when she was in bed.

I don't know if that's really relevant or not. But do you guys think i'm possessed? If so is there anyway to remove it without moving to god?

[Watchman]

If so is there anyway to remove it without moving to god?

No. Sorry to break it to you, but He is the only way. Actually, I'm not sorry to break it to you. If you'd like to discuss it privately, feel free to PM me.

blessings,

Andy aka Watchman

PS: IIRC, you'll have to post either 5 or 10 times before your private messaging is enabled.

[Colight]

I'm going to be honest with you. I don't really believe in god, or even satan at that. I don't even know why i'm saying this. But I feel as if i'm possed by something.

My Background:
I used to be a christian. My uncle actually owns his own church, and I used to go there when I was younger. But I slowly started giving up on god, and now I don't go anymore, and don't believe.

Whats going on now:
I started get mood swings, at one minute I can be happy, the other I can pissed off.

I have random impulsive behavior, many times I would just be randomly angry at my mom or my brother, and I would snap at them. My mom began to notice this.

I get random thoughts of suicide. And it's weird because I don't want to kill myself, but I still get the thoughts.(I actually told myself If I ever decide to kill myself, i'd rather rob a bank, who knows maybe ill get rich.)

No dreams. I'm not sure if this is common with demon possession, but I don't get dreams at all. No bad or good dreams. When I was younger I would lucid dream and sleepwalk a lot, but eventually it all just stopped.

Another weird thing is, my little cousin wants to be a preacher when he grows up. And for some reason I grew to hate him. I really don't understand why but every time I see him, I want to beat him.

My Mom:
My mom is a strong christian. She told me when she was younger she was able to predict the death of some people, and she saw death. She told me her grandmother was dieing, and she saw death standing near her when she was in bed.

I don't know if that's really relevant or not. But do you guys think i'm possessed? If so is there anyway to remove it without moving to god?

Simple question..

What ticks you off about Church and preachers?

[Saved7]

Well, first thing you need to know is that you need to repent and turn your life over to Jesus Christ and ask His forgiveness...you know the routine. But if you don't believe, then how can you believe in demons? So maybe it's not so much that you don't believe, but that you don't WANT to believe. so that should be addressed before God, on your knees.
Secondly, this could simply be a spiritual oppression, which would mean that there is a demon whispering in your ear keeping your moods messed up and your faith weak, so that you become an open vessel to them.
And last, I'm sorry but since you are not a Christian, you are not allowed to post in Bible Chat. But you are allowed to post in Christians Answer and in Areopagus. Possibly even in Counseling. So I am going to have to move this to another area on the board....I'm gonna try Counseling, because I think that's the best place for your concerns. But if it's not there then try the Christian's Answer on this board. But you should be able to just click on this page here in Bible chat and it will reroute you to the forum that it's in.

[Unify]

Well, first thing you need to know is that you need to repent and turn your life over to Jesus Christ and ask His forgiveness...you know the routine. But if you don't believe, then how can you believe in demons? So maybe it's not so much that you don't believe, but that you don't WANT to believe. so that should be addressed before God, on your knees.
Secondly, this could simply be a spiritual oppression, which would mean that there is a demon whispering in your ear keeping your moods messed up and your faith weak, so that you become an open vessel to them.
And last, I'm sorry but since you are not a Christian, you are not allowed to post in Bible Chat. But you are allowed to post in Christians Answer and in Areopagus. Possibly even in Counseling. So I am going to have to move this to another area on the board....I'm gonna try Counseling, because I think that's the best place for your concerns. But if it's not there then try the Christian's Answer on this board. But you should be able to just click on this page here in Bible chat and it will reroute you to the forum that it's in.

Thank you for moving it. And yes I think your right on target. It's hard to explain. I really don't want to live by faith. In my eyes living by faith is like living by trust. God wants me to trust him, and it's not something I want to or can do. I don't know if hes there or not. If I knew 100% that he was there, i'd commit myself to him. But it's just not a for sure thing.

And i'm not sure whay I have against church or preashers. I just don't like them. I don't like going near people. I'm very anti social.

[Slug1]

And i'm not sure whay I have against church or preashers. I just don't like them. I don't like going near people. I'm very anti social.

Have you considered that what you feel and typed up in your OP, is the cause of this avoidance of going to people "of" God?

In other words... it's preventing you from approaching the ONLY people that God will use to deliver you from "it"??

[Dani H]

And i'm not sure whay I have against church or preashers. I just don't like them. I don't like going near people. I'm very anti social.

Why are you antisocial and isolative? Is anyone else in your family like that? You didn't mention your dad. What's going on with him?

[Colight]

And i'm not sure whay I have against church or preashers. I just don't like them. I don't like going near people. I'm very anti social.

Was God pounded into you and a judgement style at the Churches you attended.
Was God to you a huge list of rules that you felt there was no way you could attain or complete correctly...

yet here is your perfect cousin who wants to go into the ministry .. my isnt he wonderful...you could just scream!
Meantime you just see rules with out a personal touch to God.
Is in your mind a question... Is God real or is he just a bunch of rules?

[awestruckchild]

Have you told your mom what you just told us here?
Have you told your uncle?
If you really want to be free of this, tell them so they can be working to try to help you.
This sounds like it IS demon related.
This is what your own suspicion is as well.
How is it that you suspect you may have a demon yet you don't believe God or satan exist? Do you see that this is impossible? There can be no demons if satan does not exist, and if he exists, then the story is true and God exists too.
You can go directly to Him and ask for His help.
You can also tell your mom and uncle what you are thinking has happened.
If you want to be free of this torment, you will do it.

[jayne]

I'm going to be honest with you. I don't really believe in god, or even satan at that. I don't even know why i'm saying this. But I feel as if i'm possed by something.

I am just going to take this post on face value and assume that you are sincere. You'll have to excuse my skepticsim, but I've seen a lot on the internet over the years. If you do not believe in God or the devil, then demon possession is off the table for you. It's common for people with extreme anger issues and any other kind of extreme emotional issues to claim that they don't feel in control of themselves and that something else is controlling them.

I am 50 years old and am going through menopause. I know, that's too much information. But it's important. I am having symptoms of rage as my hormones can some days just absolutely bottom out. I've shouted, screamed, and bitten people's heads off and felt totally out of control of my anger to the point where it scares me to death. In fact, I went to see my doctor and told him that I felt like I was crazy. I am not demon-possessed. I have a physical issue that it triggers extreme anger. Once my doctor and I discovered the problem, I feel more in control. When I feel the rage surging, I remind myself that this too shall pass and I make a conscious effort to keep my mouth shut.

My advice to you as the moderator of this counseling forum is to seek out a competent physician. Have a good and generalized physical exam and tell your doctor that you are having rage issues and suicidal thoughts.

Find a Christian in real life and share with them that you are having rage issues.

Mostly, thought, you need to read the Bible on your own - and completely discard any pre-conceived notions about God that you were taught. Get a copy of the Living Bible or the Holman Bible and began reading with Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. Then move to Acts. Make your OWN investigation and draw your own conclusions. The Bible says that when we seek God with our whole heart that we will find him.

Be open-minded about this. Have patience and allow God to do a work in you.

[Indueseason]

Thank you for moving it. And yes I think your right on target. It's hard to explain. I really don't want to live by faith. In my eyes living by faith is like living by trust. God wants me to trust him, and it's not something I want to or can do. I don't know if hes there or not. If I knew 100% that he was there, i'd commit myself to him. But it's just not a for sure thing.

And i'm not sure whay I have against church or preashers. I just don't like them. I don't like going near people. I'm very anti social.

If you don't believe in God or satan, why believe in demons? That just doesn't make sense. Who is possessing you? If you don't want God's help, why come to a Christian forum to ask about it? Surely you knew we would direct you to Jesus Christ? We can discuss this all day,but the issue is primarily about your rebellion to God. You need to acknowledge that He is Lord.

For that reason,I am moving this thread, to Christian answers, where we can better help you see what you need.

[Toner44]

I don't know what I can tell you that wasn't already implied in your original post. Yes, it seems like you're being demonically oppressed in some way. Demons can feed us thoughts which is exactly why we tell ourselves not to trust our emotions.

Look at it this way, you just got in the backseat of your own car with 4 people you've never met before. Its cramped, they're laughing, and somehow they have your debit card. You have no idea who these people are but they intend to rack up your card and trash and total your vehicle. You've spent half the night partying with them until you realize this is all your stuff. They just want to see you get angry. What do you do?

[oscarkipling]

I'm going to be honest with you. I don't really believe in god, or even satan at that. I don't even know why i'm saying this. But I feel as if i'm possed by something.

My Background:
I used to be a christian. My uncle actually owns his own church, and I used to go there when I was younger. But I slowly started giving up on god, and now I don't go anymore, and don't believe.

Whats going on now:
I started get mood swings, at one minute I can be happy, the other I can pissed off.

I have random impulsive behavior, many times I would just be randomly angry at my mom or my brother, and I would snap at them. My mom began to notice this.

I get random thoughts of suicide. And it's weird because I don't want to kill myself, but I still get the thoughts.(I actually told myself If I ever decide to kill myself, i'd rather rob a bank, who knows maybe ill get rich.)

No dreams. I'm not sure if this is common with demon possession, but I don't get dreams at all. No bad or good dreams. When I was younger I would lucid dream and sleepwalk a lot, but eventually it all just stopped.

Another weird thing is, my little cousin wants to be a preacher when he grows up. And for some reason I grew to hate him. I really don't understand why but every time I see him, I want to beat him.

My Mom:
My mom is a strong christian. She told me when she was younger she was able to predict the death of some people, and she saw death. She told me her grandmother was dieing, and she saw death standing near her when she was in bed.

I don't know if that's really relevant or not. But do you guys think i'm possessed? If so is there anyway to remove it without moving to god?

well, I suppose you could chalk it up to demonic possession, and listen to the advice of these fine folks here and try to have God help you out of it....But for my money i'd bet you are in your teens or early 20's where this sort of emotional turmoil has been known to happen for natural reasons. If you have mood swings, unwanted thoughts, and impulsive behavior you might want to seek a medical professional because you could be suffering from any number of perfectly natural medical conditions....not that you are for sure, I'm in no position to properly diagnose you (and the overwhelming likelihood is that none of these other people here are either). You seem to be going through a rough time, there are free counselors in most states and you can find them on google, and/or tell your mom how you are feeling and that you want to try to get to the bottom of this with a medical professional.................if she's like my mom she'll want you to go to church or speak to a church counselor, it might help (especially if you are possessed by demons ....but anyway, if she wants you to go to church, then do it on the condition that she also finds you a free medical professional...that way you can just cover all the bases and get the help you need...natural or supernatural.

[Dani H]

I don't think you're possessed. I think you have emotional issues that need to be worked out by settling them with the people who caused them and I also think you should probably eat healthier and get regular exercise.

If you don't believe in satan, why would you believe in demons? You can't have one without the other so that doesn't even make sense. And of course if satan is real then God is definitely real because it's all connected if you think about it. Which makes me think your faith in God isn't gone, I think you just pushed it away because of whatever reason.

As to your faith in God, yes it has everything to do with what is happening to you because He helps us restore our broken relationships and make peace with our past and with the people in our lives so it would be a huge help if you could find a way to come back to your faith.

What do you have against God anyway?

[Saved7]

Thank you for moving it. And yes I think your right on target. It's hard to explain. I really don't want to live by faith. In my eyes living by faith is like living by trust. God wants me to trust him, and it's not something I want to or can do. I don't know if hes there or not. If I knew 100% that he was there, i'd commit myself to him. But it's just not a for sure thing.
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How can you trust someone you've never taken the time to get to know. We all have a hard time trusting Him. But as time goes on and we seek Him and HIS ways, we grow to understand Him better and trust Him more. And who better to take a chance on than the One who willingly and knowingly chose to suffer such a horrible and humiliating death for you?

And apart from all that, it's not often I agree with oscarkipling, but he's got a point, I suspect your a teen or early twenties, and well, truth is adjusting to all those hormones can play a huge roll in such things as you describe...mood swings and not wanting to be around people, particularly your family.