on possible oppression
I still must, in my heart, believe in Jesus because lastnight in one of my weird dreams I rarely have, I cried out His name to help me. This has happened one other time I can remember and I was being chased by something(an it)horrible and I felt it was of satan, yes, like a demon. I cried out loud enough it woke me but before that, I felt Jesus reach and take my hand. It was as though He pulled me right out of the nightmare. I am almost in tears writing this because my heart's desire is to once more put all my faith in Him but there is something almost constantly blocking me.
There is a gal at our church that is heading up a mentoring program and their main focus is for women like me or similar, that are having a hard time believing anymore.
I didn't know where to post this and if anyone has a better place or knows someone on this board that knows about satan getting a foothold in someone's life, I would be so open to hearing. I used to be a regular contributer here but not for some time. I know the Word of God pretty well but I have read a book, or two, on knowing God's Word but not knowing Him. I believe that I may actually have a relationship with Jesus but I am on the "outs" with Him. I think He is calling me. Or at the least, He is waiting for me with open arms.
Anyway, I keep turning back to Him, once I am so scared I am going to go into depression(or oppression)I will never come back out again. I managed to finish school for the year(back in school at 59 years old)straight A's. You'd think I'd be happy. Just rode my bike 11 + miles, you think I'd be happy. Have all and more than I need, you'd think I'd be happy. Followers of Christ will know better. It's an inside job.
2 Timothy 3:16
All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness,