Short Version. I am near rock-bottom. I have lost everything and just about everyone dear to me. My family has been dispersed to the winds, my great streak of having constant work has dried up, and my relationship situation has taken a nose dive. Why am I writing this? Because Lord Yeshua doesn't take breaks.
I did wrong. Many wrongs have I done, both in public and in private, and the truth is that I am going to repeat these offenses. I have no one but myself to blame for the terrible misfortune that has been given to me. All the while, I hear His voice, telling me to come back to Him. So, I'm here. If you all can pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it. I do not want riches, or even work. I want to finally right the wrongs that I have committed for over 13 years. I am sorry that I can not give the specifics, but the only one who needs to know already knows. I need to get right. I need to get right with Him, I need to get right with my family, and I need to get right for myself. I see myself spiraling down the road to ruin, and I have to say it was fun, for a while. Reality is a cruel mistress, and she slapped me in the face, with Wisdom waiting for her turn. I am not going to jail or anything like that, but spiritually, I could definitely do better. Please pray for me, and also, pray that the mistakes that I have made do not affect too much the children I have failed. Thank you all in advance.