Re: The Prodigal returns.
Friend, please know that I am already praying for you. I sense a real sincerity in your plea for help.
To help you farther, I am going to move this thread to Counseling where people WILL both pray with you and try to help you also. (But you are on my prayer list and I won't stop praying for you and your family. This is a subject dear to my heart, and I promise I am praying.)
My favorite scripture: Malachi 3:16
"Then they that feared the LORD spake often one to another: and the LORD hearkened, and heard it, and a book of remembrance was written before him for them that feared the LORD, and that thought upon his name!" (Every time we speak of the Lord, or even THINK of him--its written down in a book of remembrance!)