I'm a Christian but have spent the last several months in serious doubt of the existence of an “interactive” God and the existence of the spiritual world. A few nights ago I was in bed on my iPhone and out of nowhere I experienced a flurry of energy concentrated on my hands and phone. To be clear, I was very drunk, just smoked weed and was gazing at a muscular picture of myself at this time, creepy I know. It was an energetic force that I felt pressure on my hands from. At one point, I saw a black whispy cloud formation circling around in front of me, just a 1-2 foot space, but went away quickly. Anytime I focused on it, it disappeared but when my focus subsided it reappeared immediately. I began to pray audibly and started playing audio scripture on my phone. This seemed to have an effect but it almost became a struggle of the spirit coming and going, like a battle was happening. It was Mark Driscoll preaching and the audio seemed very distorted as I heard it. My heart was pounding out of my chest and at a few points felt it stopped completely. I didn’t have an overwhelming sense of good or evil from it, just that it scared me. I’m not sure at this point if it is a negative or positive experience as I’m not sure how to deal with it. After playing scripture for a bit, it seemed to go away. A few minutes later, however, the board blocking the gap in my window, from my window AC, went flying across the floor. I wasn’t alarmed immediately, as this happens occasionally when there’s high wind, was calm that night. I put it back into place, bracing it with a heavy book. A few minutes later, slammed to the floor again. If it was an angel reprimanding me for my very apparent problems, I’m grateful for our God caring. If it was an evil spirit oppressing me somehow, I’m grateful as well, as I’m been made aware that this happens.








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