I feel like breaking down..

[jayne]

Thank you Jayne, I feel a bit better. I have not confessed nor repented I don't know how. I prayed to God the other day for almost an hour I'd say. My sins though are considered to as I heard "deadly"? Are these unforgiveable?
I believe I am addicted to Ciggarettes and I smoke marijuana for medicinal purposes. I am not sure if those are sinful to God, but at times they help me.
How do I confess my sins? How do I repent? I am so confused on these topics.
Will God know I'm sincere? If I repeat a sin that I've repented how can I make it up to my lord?

I feel like I'm trying, but something is holding me back from letting loose and embracing this love and truth that everyone is speaking of.

There is only one deadly sin - unforgivable sin. And that the rejection of Jesus Christ. All other sins - murder, rape, child abuse, lying, hating, cheating and infinitely more - these sins can all be forgiven.

To confess one sins to God is to talk to Him and tell things like, "Dear God - I really blew it today and I am sorry. I lied again to my best friend and I confess to you now that I've sinned against You." or "Dear Heavenly Father - forgive me. I can't seem to stop getting drunk. I confess to you that I am destroying my body and am sinning against You." It really is just that simple.

How does one repent? They turn their back on the sins. Make a conscious and daily effort to forsake sin. And acknowledge that on your own - this is impossible. But tell God in prayer something like- "God, I want to repent of getting high today. Help me to forsake this today. Show me what to do and direct my focus to something else. Help me - before I put my feet on the floor to forsake wickness today." There are no magic words and no litergy to recite. Just talk to God.

Yes, God will know that the sincerity of your heart. He alone knows heart of humanity and the motives for every single thing we do.

Are you going to repeat a sin that you have repented of? Probably. We all do. Confess and repent and start over. The book of Lamentations says that God mercies are NEW every morning

Lamentations 3:19-16 =

"Remember my affliction and my homelessness,
the wormwood and the poison.
I continually remember them
and have become depressed.
Yet I call this to mind,
and therefore I have hope:

Because of the Lord’s faithful love
we do not perish,
for His mercies never end.
They are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness!
I say: The Lord is my portion,
therefore I will put my hope in Him.

The Lord is good to those who wait for Him,
to the person who seeks Him.
It is good to wait quietly
for deliverance from the Lord.

[HopeSparkles]

Thank you Stephen, I sent you an e-mail with full detail of my situation of distress. I truly do appreciate the help you've given me. As well as Jayne, you two are beautiful and good people and I hope God shines on you all the blessings he would his own son.

[HopeSparkles]

There is only one deadly sin - unforgivable sin. And that the rejection of Jesus Christ. All other sins - murder, rape, child abuse, lying, hating, cheating and infinitely more - these sins can all be forgiven.

To confess one sins to God is to talk to Him and tell things like, "Dear God - I really blew it today and I am sorry. I lied again to my best friend and I confess to you now that I've sinned against You." or "Dear Heavenly Father - forgive me. I can't seem to stop getting drunk. I confess to you that I am destroying my body and am sinning against You." It really is just that simple.

How does one repent? They turn their back on the sins. Make a conscious and daily effort to forsake sin. And acknowledge that on your own - this is impossible. But tell God in prayer something like- "God, I want to repent of getting high today. Help me to forsake this today. Show me what to do and direct my focus to something else. Help me - before I put my feet on the floor to forsake wickness today." There are no magic words and no litergy to recite. Just talk to God.

Yes, God will know that the sincerity of your heart. He alone knows heart of humanity and the motives for every single thing we do.

Are you going to repeat a sin that you have repented of? Probably. We all do. Confess and repent and start over. The book of Lamentations says that God mercies are NEW every morning

Lamentations 3:19-16 =

"Remember my affliction and my homelessness,
the wormwood and the poison.
I continually remember them
and have become depressed.
Yet I call this to mind,
and therefore I have hope:

Because of the Lord’s faithful love
we do not perish,
for His mercies never end.
They are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness!
I say: The Lord is my portion,
therefore I will put my hope in Him.

The Lord is good to those who wait for Him,
to the person who seeks Him.
It is good to wait quietly
for deliverance from the Lord.

Thank you so much Jayne, that comforts me to know that. Before I lay to go to sleep, I will confess my sins and ask him help on repenting.

[Dani H]

So just by acknowledging and believing that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, already puts me in somewhat good standing with the Lord Almighty?

That's step 1.

Step 2 is believing He was raised from the dead (no use putting your faith in a dead Savior, is there?).

Step 3 then is submitting to His lordship (as the living, resurrected Savior) and relinquishing control. Basically, letting Jesus be God and giving Him the place in your life that belongs to Him and that you've been occupying (and rather badly, probably ... welcome to the club).

Call Jesus "Lord" (out loud, in front of witnesses) and embrace HIS commands and HIS ways of doing things, and let yours go. Commit yourself to following Him and never go back to the old but keep on living God's way, by God's power, leaving your badly mismanaged old life in the dust of never-never land. Because the old is full of death and so why bother? Receive God's life and be made new.

[HopeSparkles]

Thank you for your response Dani, I appreciate you for the time you took to help as well.

Before reading your post, I had actually finished confessing my sins to the Lord to where I broke down in tears in embarrassment and shame. I am not ashamed to cry anymore, and the moment happened really fast but I believe I was heard by the Lord. I had my eyes closed, and I saw this speckle of light and it disappeared all of a sudden. Mind you, I was in my bed room with the lights turned off and my head facing the bed, I was on both kneels pretty much confiding in the lord as if he were my mother and I was in trouble afraid of being punished. Anywho, when that happened my mind kind of just went blank all of a sudden and it felt nice. Just for that one small moment, it felt longer than it was and it was comfortable.

I believe this was a sign that I was heard from the Lord, that he opened his heart to my cry. I still carry grief on my shoulders, but now I do not feel so bad. Is this how it should be?

[Dani H]

By "felt nice" and "comfortable" ... is that your way of saying "peaceful"?

Because yes, that's defnitely how it should be:

Philippians 4:6-8

New King James Version (NKJV)

6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

[HopeSparkles]

I feel so optimistic today, like I can do anything in the world. Thank you all.

God Bless you all!!!

[IMINXTC]

Great to know things are going well, Praise the Lord

Continued prayers for you and your family.