It was a typical Friday night for me; doing my hair and makeup, getting dressed to go out. My husband and I had been separated for over 3 years, and had joint custody of our two children . At the time, I thought I had it made. I was single, had a great job, my own place, a nice car, and a total false sense of freedom and security. On this particular night, my husband and I had been fighting over the phone, same reason as always. He hated my lifestyle, and looking back now he just wanted me to be a good wife and mother. Being blind at the time, I saw it as his way of controlling me. After hanging up on him, I was very upset. In a moment of desperation, I fell to my knees right on my bathroom floor and asked God to fix my life. What God did next is one reason why I am so sure He is real. The guilt from the life I'd been living flooded my soul, I saw my life from God's eyes. The shame I felt was so overwhelming I found myself almost laying down on the floor with humiliation begging for forgiveness. In that next moment, Jesus wiped those sins away, I felt so warm spiritually and physically. God filled me with so much love i could hardly contain it. This was the love I'd been blindly looking for. Still on my knees God told me to go back to my husband and my children. Even then, I tell God," He's never going to take me back ", and He replies "I'm going to walk you through every step if you just trust Me." So with a tear stained face and a great sense of exitement, I jumped up off my knees and thought about my husband. Only this time when I thought about him, it was with more love than I'd ever felt before. I ran to the phone and called him. "Honey, please can I come home?" Of course he thought I had lost it, I mean we just had a screaming match over the phone minutes earlier, but he did take me back. Needless to say I didn't go out that night, and I haven't been out like that again. God changed more than just my plans that night, He changed me and my whole life. There have been obstacles, but I've trusted God through them all and He has "walked me through every step" just like He said. Me and my husband are still crazy in love, and just last year God blessed us with a baby girl. Thank you Lord for your grace, forgiveness and guidance.
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