I am a Christian who has been called to stop smoking. I know many Christians struggle with this and there is controversy over the issue. For me, and me alone, the Lord has made crystal clear, my time to stop smoking is now.
How do I know? Well, when I am smoking, I have lower back pain, upper back pain, and a stiff neck. Sleeping in bed at night gives me back pain and my whole body is stiff. I take over the counter pain medication and this gives me temporary relief. When I quit for a day or two, the pain all but disappears.
There are now signs that the pain medication itself is causing more trouble than it is worth.
I am now on the second day and have stopped taking pain medication.
I am using Nicorettes as a nicotine substitute. I have tried Champax and Zyban previously but they both have side effects for me that make them not viable.
When the urge to smoke comes I am defenseless as a small child. All my resolutions go out the window and I cave in.
I feel the prescense of the Holy Spirit when I am stopped. I feel so good, and I pray to God that I can just keep this forever, that I can stay stopped. Yet I am not delivered.
I become super-sensitive to the needs of others, I also become inspired about the testimony which I can write. The enemy uses both of these against me, I find that I start beating myself up terribly about perhaps an inconsiderate word I might have said to another, or about some inaction in my life. When I am smoking, I am much less considerate to those around me. Then when I stop, it suddenly hits me like a ton of bricks, that I have been unloving. The enemy will then say to me, I face certain judgement. I may find myself unable to sleep, all night.
I used to use substances (drugs) over a year ago. I have been delivered from the urge to use, but while I was using I opened up gateways, in the form of telepathic communication with spirits. Since then, I became aware that these spirits were demonic. When I quit smoking, the communication closes up. When I relapse and smoke cigarettes again, the channel opens ever wider again, the enemy points out that I am in rebellion, and I am mocked almost to distraction.
It doesn't matter how serious the consequences of smoking cigarettes is, this doesn't help me to stay stopped. I am aware that I am dealing with an incredibly hard addiction to overcome. I need God's help more than anything. I feel that I am in captivity, and I am waiting on the Lord, to deliver me.
Well, that is a long story, made short. Has anyone had similar experiences?
I would appreciate your prayers. I am hoping this time, I am delivered.