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TruthFaith
Jul 13th 2008, 05:19 AM
Hello there, thank you for just reading this if you had a chance. I feel blessed knowing that there are people like you guys all over the world offering their unconditional positive regard.


Okay, I have fell in love with a musical instrument. It has provided me with the opportunity to escape everything that has happened that is sad. But I found this gift out kind of late-soon I will be 17 years old and that itself is kind of scary-17 years of life gone. You probably say that I'm young but I am old compared to many guitarists who started wayyy young.

But I just wish that I discovered this earlier in my life so I would of had this experience as a child. There are so many possibilities and each time I have a memory of when I was younger I would fantasize about a way the guitar would come in. I was wondering why God did not put this earlier in my life so I could have the beautiful experience as a child of learning how to play(I know it sounds weird). How do I get out of this?? Should I just ask God to miraculously put this experience into my mind? When I look at artists like Coldplay, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Cartel, and others I feel like I want to be like them. I know that we ae one big great family descending from Adam and Eve and part of God's great big family it's makes me love each and every one of you-even if I don't know you personally :hug:. So whenever I see the guitar and start playing it I feel regret and depression knowing I will never be a young little player of the age of 12 so I don't know if I want to even try because it leaves me into depression-days where I can't even get out of bed thinking about a time when I heard a song and wondering why in my mind I wasn't motivated to play it. I feel like it continually challenging me, forcing me to say that the soul has no age and I should focus spiritually, or that this opportunity is in the past and I had it in the past-that gives me a sense of comfort. I do not want it to haunt me. I feel driven to killing myself to just start over (that was a crazy idea but I know there is no reincarnation and that I will go to hell)

So I am kindly asking you to help me find logic while approaching this and right now I feel a dark emptiness inside my heart and I want to know if this part of my life will open up and be golden. Will it all end up being good? I put in red my major points.


In Christ,

Kat

threebigrocks
Jul 16th 2008, 04:09 AM
TrueFaith, please let me know that you have seen this thread moved to this forum for discussion.

You mentioned wanting to take your life. Please, if you still have those thoughts get in contact with a friend, your parents, a pastor, medical professional or one of the following resources:



If you are thinking about committing suicide then take just a minute and read through this site. http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Other sites where you can receive trained help in matters such as this.

http://www.newhopeonline.org/referrals/suicidal.html
1-714-NEW-HOPE (639-4673)

This group is out of the UK but they are also now a world-wide organization.
http://www.samaritans.org.uk/

Metanoia Online counseling and other good resources
http://www.metanoia.org/

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention counseling and other resources
www.afsp.org (http://www.afsp.org/)
1-888-333-AFSP (2377)

A list of Suicide Centers by individual state
http://www.suicidology.org/crisis_ce..._your_area.htm (http://www.suicidology.org/crisis_centers_in_your_area.htm)

American Association of Suicide
www.suicidology.org/things.htm (http://www.suicidology.org/things.htm)
1-202-237-2280