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SteveL
Dec 2nd 2011, 06:51 AM
I want to share this praise report. I've struggled with pornography and masturbation. It would be a repeating cycle where I sin, repent, fall back into sin, repent and the cycle repeats itself.

Last month, I became so disgusted with myself that one night I just cried out to God for deliverance. I had done this before, but I think THIS time, my heart was really desiring to change and to honor God, rather than just saying it and hoping this would be the time things click and change.

Well, it's been about 3 weeks now since I've even looked at pornography or masturbated. I know there's a debate out there amongst Christians whether "masturbation" is sinful or not, but I know deep down that it is because it involves lust.

Anyway, in the past 3 weeks I haven't had any 'urges' either, which is a miracle in and of itself. Please keep praying for me though, because I'm still human and the enemy will be attacking me. I want to continue to honor God with my purity.

Thank you, saints! And thank you LORD! :)

jecelpabor
Dec 2nd 2011, 07:44 AM
It's a brave thing to testify about your convertion, and it's even braver to testify about something difficult to testify on. I have been through the same thing, what you're experiencing. At least one of the things I've been through. But out of all those sins I turned away from, this form of lust is something that I will never go back to. It destroyed my spirit the way none can ever imagine (but if you can, then thank God I'm not alone). Mind you that I'm still single, but I felt the hands of God reprimanding me one day on this form of bodily desecration. I thought this sin is the lesser evil; I thought to myself that I'd rather do this than kill or steal, for I was only sinning to myself. I was so wrong. I sinned to God in a way that marred and destroyed my spirit. I thought it was okay, never have I been so deceived. And I played with this deception for almost 2 decades. I'm really happy for you. Keep up the good work and always trust in Jesus Christ and his steadfast love! I'll leave you with this reading:

1 John 4:4 - Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for He who is in you is greater than d he who is in the world. Amen!!!

SteveL
Dec 2nd 2011, 07:52 AM
It's a brave thing to testify about your convertion, and it's even braver to testify about something difficult to testify on. I have been through the same thing, what you're experiencing. At least one of the things I've been through. But out of all those sins I turned away from, this form of lust is something that I will never go back to. It destroyed my spirit the way none can ever imagine (but if you can, then thank God I'm not alone). Mind you that I'm still single, but I felt the hands of God reprimanding me one day on this form of bodily desecration. I thought this sin is the lesser evil; I thought to myself that I'd rather do this than kill or steal, for I was only sinning to myself. I was so wrong. I sinned to God in a way that marred and destroyed my spirit. I thought it was okay, never have I been so deceived. And I played with this deception for almost 2 decades. I'm really happy for you. Keep up the good work and always trust in Jesus Christ and his steadfast love! I'll leave you with this reading:

1 John 4:4 - Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for He who is in you is greater than d he who is in the world. Amen!!!

Amen, I share many of your sentiments. I thought "Lord, I'm only sinning to myself here... no big deal right?" but it was distancing me from God... and that IS a huge deal.

I've only been Christian 2 years, so whereas you struggled for 2 decades, I've struggled only 2 years. Praise God He lifted you up out of that cesspool. I pray I will be able to stay clean from now on for Christ.

jecelpabor
Dec 2nd 2011, 08:55 AM
But everyone should rejoice, for this affliction is but temporary, something that cannot be compared to the glory Jesus has set for us in heaven now that you believe and can finally see(2 Corinthians 4:16-18). SteveL, now that you have submitted yourself to Christ, you will be tested. But just like my dear Christian friend who told me about this truth, you should remain faithful. The adversary will throw several different kinds of deception and lures at you, but I pray, and pray deep, that you remain in truth. Believe me when I say that sometimes even if you already know the truth you will doubt it. This is a spiritual warfare now, but rest assured that Christ that's in you is greater than anything, I say ANYTHING, in this world (1 John 4:4). Keep the faith, brother! Amen!!!

david
Dec 4th 2011, 11:22 PM
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13

Went through this struggle too. You're not alone guys. Keep fighting the good fight of faith; serve as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. This is what I did that helped me a lot: I cut off all porn sources. I deleted all the porn off my harddrives. Second, I took out the wireless card in my laptop so that I'm less likely to use the internet in a private place. Third, I asked people to help pray for me. Fourth, I installed an accountability program on my computer that reports my internet history to another person (Norton Family Minder). Lastly, here are some verses that may help you to stop sinning (meditating on these when temptations came up helped me a lot):
LUST OF THE EYES: Flee youthful lusts. 2ti 2:22 The mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the spirit is life and peace. Ro 8:6 Everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart. Mt 5:28 It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. Jn 6:63 We put no confidence in the flesh. Php 3:3 Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. Col3.11 Do not desire her beauty in your heart, and do not let her capture you with her eyelashes. Pr 6:25 Charm is deceitful. Pr 31.30 Never satisfied are the eyes of man. Pr 27:20 The eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing. Eccl 1:8 Take care, and be on your guard against all covetousness. Lk 12.15 LOOKING ON THE OUTWARD APPEARANCES: Beauty is vain. Pr 31:30 What is exalted among men is an abomination in the sight of God. Lk 16:15 man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart. 1Sa 16:7 All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flower of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls, but the word of God stands forever. 1pe 1:24-25 We walk by faith, not by sight. 2co 5:7 Do not judge by appearances, but judge with right judgment. Jn 7:24 You judge according to the flesh; I judge no one. Jn 8:15 His appearance was so marred, beyond human semblance, and his form beyond that of the children of mankind. Isa 52:14 Show no partiality. Jas 2:1 No one is a Jew who is merely one outwardly, nor is circumcision outward and physical. Ro 2:28 We behaved in the world with simplicity and godly sincerity, not by earthly wisdom but by the grace of God. 2co 1:12 LUST OF THE FLESH: Let us walk properly as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and sensuality, not in quarreling and jealousy. But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires. Ro 13:13-14 I said in my heart, Come now, I will test you with pleasure; enjoy yourself. But behold, this also was vanity. Eccl 2:1-3 My people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed out cisterns for themselves, broken cisterns that can hold no water. Jer 2:13 Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. Jn 4:13-14 Fornication and all uncleanness or greediness, let it not even be named among you, as is fitting for saints, Eph 5:3 I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul. 1pe 2:11 I will not be brought under the power of anything. 1co 6.12 Keep your way far from the forbidden woman, and do not go near the door of her house. Pr 5:8 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. Mt 10:39 And do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but be filled with the Spirit, Eph 5:18 Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous. He 13:4

svfox
Dec 8th 2011, 05:25 AM
Yea, this is the one sin that is against your own self. Distinct sin from the others.
God loves you but hates the sin. So you can't love the sin and God. Most people don't have the strength or want to change.
But you will find God releasing all the blessings he has withheld from you.
Alcoholics go through the same feelings so you can now understand what they go through every day.

SteveL
Dec 8th 2011, 05:39 AM
Yea, this is the one sin that is against your own self. Distinct sin from the others.
God loves you but hates the sin. So you can't love the sin and God. Most people don't have the strength or want to change.
But you will find God releasing all the blessings he has withheld from you.
Alcoholics go through the same feelings so you can now understand what they go through every day.


Yes! God has already been unleashing blessings to me in the past 30 days I've stayed clean and living for Him. He's blessed me with a 2nd part-time job, an outreach short play at a convalescent home put together in the shortest amount of time possible, blessings on my current 1st part time job, etc. etc.

I never want to go back to my old lifestyle again. I've buried it and burned the key. Of course, it's easy now, with life so hectic and winter time. The real challenge will be spring/summer when women start wearing less and less. God, help me keep my eyes on You!

SteveL
Jan 25th 2012, 10:34 AM
Hey everyone, a quick update and confession.

I slipped up on December 11 or thereabouts. I went 30 days clean, and had a slip-up. That slip-up was followed by me falling back into the same trap. However, I have stay cleaned for almost 2 weeks as I write this. This thing ain't going away without a fight. Please lift me up in prayer. I had read somewhere that 2 years clean is sort of the magic mark where the chemicals in your brain are washed away and if you can go 2 years without masturbating or viewing pornography, you're "out in the clear" so to speak.

Thank you in advance for lifting me up, saints!

Brother Mark
Jan 25th 2012, 03:30 PM
Hey everyone, a quick update and confession.

I slipped up on December 11 or thereabouts. I went 30 days clean, and had a slip-up. That slip-up was followed by me falling back into the same trap. However, I have stay cleaned for almost 2 weeks as I write this. This thing ain't going away without a fight. Please lift me up in prayer. I had read somewhere that 2 years clean is sort of the magic mark where the chemicals in your brain are washed away and if you can go 2 years without masturbating or viewing pornography, you're "out in the clear" so to speak.

Thank you in advance for lifting me up, saints!

Keep on keeping on brother!

Check out the web site settingcaptivesfree. They have a 30 or 60 day course (can't remember how long because I think it has changed) that really helps.

Also, Steve Gallagher has a book called "Living in Victory" that is a great help about victorious living in general. But his specialty is victory over sexual sin.

Thanks for sharing your testimony and keep on keeping on!

schlot
Feb 20th 2012, 03:56 PM
Bravo! It's a tough thing for guys to face and admit to, thanks for sharing.

ChristianCoffee
Feb 20th 2012, 09:53 PM
My brother, I am praying for you. I fully understand what you are going through, as I have had the same past issues. And honestly, even in marriage I have performed this sin. I cannot say how long it has been anymore (I think 5 years, but unsure), but there are times where it comes back at me, and I can only close my eyes and pray that the Lord will deliver me from the temptation.

I am praying for you, my brother. This is not an easy thing to speak of, in any format.

In Him,

CC

Romans 8:15-17

SteveL
Mar 1st 2012, 10:51 AM
Update: Thanks for all the prayers.

So, Nov. 11-Dec. 11 2011 I was clean. I slipped after I realized I passed the 1 month barrier and got a little prideful.

In January I went 3 weeks clean until slipping on February 2nd.

However, the good news is, I've been clean since February 3rd. I'm again going on about a month clean. I think for me it's to take it one day at a time, and not get caught up in "wow, it's been ____ long since I fell into it" because I think the enemy uses that as a foothold.

I know tough days lie ahead. I'd like to stay clean through Easter at the very least. I have found as I focused more on what God wants me to focus on, it's a lot easier to not fall to old vices.

ChristianCoffee
Mar 1st 2012, 09:21 PM
Great job. It is good to hear such an update.

And I will continue to pray for you.

In Him,

CC

Romans 8:15-17

SteveL
Mar 2nd 2012, 05:01 AM
It is good to hear such an update.

It is good to be able to give such an update!

Without God I wouldn't care. And I probably would do it everyday. But because Holy Spirit lives in me, and I in Him, and I know my temple was bought with a price and that it is not my own, I'm striving to walk like Jesus did. Only through His grace and our obedience to the calling placed on our lives are we able to do so.

TonySodza
Mar 2nd 2012, 07:04 AM
That is great congratulations! Pray for me - I have the same problem. Thank you.

Dravenhawk
Apr 15th 2012, 12:18 PM
This is one area of my life that isnt shored up very well I hate to say. The deception for me is good ol denial. I believed that looking at "soft" porn was ok and masterbation was better than going all out and committing adultry. Ah the power of bargaining! I can so relate to doing the deed, feeling remorse, going to the cross for what seems like the ten millionth time to bang on the door and ask Christ for forgiveness. In the sex saturated society where we are constantly bombarded with racy images of women in advertising TV and movies one becomes somewhat desensitizes to it, maybe even hipnotically numb to an extent. So here I was yesterday night watching rhe Battlestar Galictica miniseries opener (the new one not the one from the 1970s) while doing the night watch for the homeless shelter our church operates. This racy scene comes on, it was downright soft porn. I didnt turn it off rationalizing in my head that the scene would be over and the remainder of the movie was space battle stuff. Well the next day my pastor kindly took me aside and told me that by entertaining that spirti I was bringing it in with me even though I did not find the scene appealing the enemy was using it as a foothold to access not only my mind but also the minds of the 25 or so homeless folk we are trying to save. To rationalize that entertaining the sin of lust is only a sin upon ones self is complete folly. I told my pastor that I would destroy the movie lest I or anyone else watch it again. My pastor asks me "What are you going to do with the sin that still is in your heart?" He showed me that it is a spirit that I have allowed to become attached to my heart and that I was bringing it in with me. Mind you I didnt tell him I have been masterbating to imaginings conjured forth in my mind then asking for forgiveness in secret, but there it was as plain as a wart the size of a casaba mellon on my nose for him to see. It gave me pause to ask wether how many others am I affecting with this spirit. My pastor also told me that by entertaining this spirit it is blocking out how I might be hearing from God. - - - - Dravenhawk

vlad
Apr 22nd 2012, 09:01 PM
a lot of males and females struggle in this area . your not alone who has struggled for decades .

SteveL
Apr 25th 2012, 09:34 AM
Thanks for sharing your story, Dravenhawk. I absolutely agree with your pastor that we who sin freely and knowingly... it blocks us from hearing God.

I went a record 45 days or so clean, but slipped up and have since been struggling with this square dance of "staying strong for you Lord" "oops I sinned again" "forgive me Lord" repeat. Since I've found myself re-dabbling in this sin, I have felt very distanced from God. It scares me because I also felt at one point almost indifferent. I think I went through a period where I became very cynical and very selfish (i.e. accepting defeat and engaging in the sin multiple times a week). But I don't want to keep walking down that path anymore. I certainly need God's grace more now than ever before!

poriggity
Jun 23rd 2012, 02:59 PM
I know this thread is a little old, but Steve, I'd like to hear how you are doing with this battle. I too faced this struggle, and did not stop until recently. I re-devoted myself to the Lord, and quite honestly, at this point, I have no desire to look at pornography any longer. The Devil may tempt me to look again soon, but I know I can stay strong in the Lord.

I am praying for you!

SteveL
Jun 24th 2012, 05:46 AM
I know this thread is a little old, but Steve, I'd like to hear how you are doing with this battle. I too faced this struggle, and did not stop until recently. I re-devoted myself to the Lord, and quite honestly, at this point, I have no desire to look at pornography any longer. The Devil may tempt me to look again soon, but I know I can stay strong in the Lord.

I am praying for you!

Thank you! Coincidentally, I viewed this thread LAST NIGHT (before you replied). Huh, God works in mysterious ways I guess. It's fitting that this thread is revived, because my desire for purity has recently gone through a revival. I have slipped up here and there, but now it's a little different. I think my accountability partner leaving me -- I let that affect me too much, when it shouldn't be about humans, but my relationship with Christ. I'm now more determined than normal to walk pure and upright, honoring the Lord.

Especially with my recent full time job offer, I want to more than ever walk as purely as possible. Despite my sinning, the Lord continues to reveal His glory and grace to a sinner like me. It's really humbling and at some point your heart doesn't want to break your Daddy's heart anymore, while He continually extends His hand of love and grace out to you.

Thanks again for your prayers :)

Dani H
Jun 24th 2012, 01:24 PM
God bless you people for coming out here and being honest.

The best way to stay defeated is to keep yourself isolated. :)

SteveL
Jun 24th 2012, 02:06 PM
God bless you people for coming out here and being honest.

The best way to stay defeated is to keep yourself isolated. :)


Indeed, Dani. Guilt, shame and isolation are some of the enemy's strongest tricks. That's when we have to remember Romans 8:1, Hebrews 10:25 and James 5:16 among others. There is no condemnation for those under Christ! I am choosing to walk in victory this day, not in defeat, for Christ has already won the battle. This is a declaration we must proclaim each morning while putting on the full Armor of God :)

Dani H
Jun 24th 2012, 11:30 PM
Remember you're not made for isolation. It's a self-protect mechanism that is rooted in our fallen state.

You were made for fellowship with God.

Don't isolate yourself from Him. Go to Him. With everything. Cause He already knows anyway, and none of us are really hiding anything.

Might as well go on the offensive and be done with it. :)

SteveL
Jul 7th 2012, 11:03 AM
I don't want to get too caught up in numbers but praise God -- two weeks now and counting of purity!

With my new full time job as a teacher, I now have much more at stake. To those who are given much, much is expected. Whereas before I was a part time teacher and lived my life selfishly, now I'm trying to re-position Jesus in the center, and also thinking about my (future) students (come next month!). I'm living for 20 (students) now, not just myself. I do not want to enter the classroom full time with this habitual sin hanging over my head.

How's everyone else doing in the pornography department?

jimmie
Jul 10th 2012, 12:10 AM
Hello Steve I just wanna say bravo to you for fighting this sin and being open about something that alot of people would not usually share. I know you say you slip up from time to time but you have been moving in the right direction and more often then not you avoid sin. This is pretty impressive IMO especially considering the world we live in today where the temptation is just so strong.

Im working on this area of myself. I havent viewed pornography in weeks although I have masturbated 2x. Im at a point where I really do wanna follow Christ and im not sure if I can do that full of lust. I work in the public and for years its been easy to see an attractive woman walk in and look at her with lust. I dont wanna do any of that anymore no more lust whether its by sight or by masturbating. It sounds so easy to just stop but it really isnt it lol but it can be done and it will be done. Good job my freind and keep it up.

SteveL
Jul 10th 2012, 07:05 AM
Hello Steve I just wanna say bravo to you for fighting this sin and being open about something that alot of people would not usually share. I know you say you slip up from time to time but you have been moving in the right direction and more often then not you avoid sin. This is pretty impressive IMO especially considering the world we live in today where the temptation is just so strong.

Im working on this area of myself. I havent viewed pornography in weeks although I have masturbated 2x. Im at a point where I really do wanna follow Christ and im not sure if I can do that full of lust. I work in the public and for years its been easy to see an attractive woman walk in and look at her with lust. I dont wanna do any of that anymore no more lust whether its by sight or by masturbating. It sounds so easy to just stop but it really isnt it lol but it can be done and it will be done. Good job my freind and keep it up.

God bless you brother! I just lifted you, myself, all other brothers and sisters up into the Lord's hands. We definitely need to pray for one another. Thank you for sharing, your encouragement and being so honest. I know what you mean, especially with it being summer time, if you go to a mall or any kind of place where young adults flock (I'm a young adult myself), it's easy to get caught up in staring at a woman in a sinful manner.

My personal weakness has been Saturdays. That's always been the day that gets me, and challenges me the most. And boy, this past Saturday, I was tempted. The thought of going to do the act and "relieve myself" was trying its hardest to burrow its way into my scalp. Praise God, I walked in victory last Saturday (where I usually stumble in the past). I think sometimes I get to a point where I deliberately already made up my mind to be selfish and give myself a release... and I was feeling that way dangerously this past Saturday. However, I prayed for grace and strength. Not long after, my brother and his girlfriend dropped by, and I pretty much spent the night in their company. As my mentor tells me, we can only take it 1 day at a time, and pray for one another.

My personal best is 40-45 days clean. I did that this past early February-late March but upon stumbling in late March, I went through a period where I was doing it 1-4x a week. Pretty soon it became back to that "Oh man, I just can't kick this habit" mindset. Not long ago, I felt convicted to refocus my commitment to honoring Christ and keeping my actions pure. I pray for His continued grace.

Thanks again for sharing, Jimmie. God IS with us and our brothers and sisters!

jimmie
Jul 10th 2012, 03:19 PM
God bless you brother! I just lifted you, myself, all other brothers and sisters up into the Lord's hands. We definitely need to pray for one another. Thank you for sharing, your encouragement and being so honest. I know what you mean, especially with it being summer time, if you go to a mall or any kind of place where young adults flock (I'm a young adult myself), it's easy to get caught up in staring at a woman in a sinful manner.

My personal weakness has been Saturdays. That's always been the day that gets me, and challenges me the most. And boy, this past Saturday, I was tempted. The thought of going to do the act and "relieve myself" was trying its hardest to burrow its way into my scalp. Praise God, I walked in victory last Saturday (where I usually stumble in the past). I think sometimes I get to a point where I deliberately already made up my mind to be selfish and give myself a release... and I was feeling that way dangerously this past Saturday. However, I prayed for grace and strength. Not long after, my brother and his girlfriend dropped by, and I pretty much spent the night in their company. As my mentor tells me, we can only take it 1 day at a time, and pray for one another.

My personal best is 40-45 days clean. I did that this past early February-late March but upon stumbling in late March, I went through a period where I was doing it 1-4x a week. Pretty soon it became back to that "Oh man, I just can't kick this habit" mindset. Not long ago, I felt convicted to refocus my commitment to honoring Christ and keeping my actions pure. I pray for His continued grace.

Thanks again for sharing, Jimmie. God IS with us and our brothers and sisters!

Wow Steve I have to say you are really giving me extra motivation to kick this habit of mine to the curb. I myself am a young adult only 23 years old and I think for younger guys it has to be the hardest. When you talk about the Saturday's it reminds me of just last night where I had some alone time and I had the urge to like you sae relieve myself. I fought that urge and feel much better doing that then I do by giving in.

Ive made a committment to stop all my sexual sin. Since being Baptized I knew that the old me was dead and for the first few months after I didnt take it that seriously in all honesty. I still kept masturbating and viewing porn and and I kinda figured since ive already sex before why would I ever wanna wait till im married ? I got involved with a girl from the church a few months ago and it was very tough because of the mutual physical attraction we had for each other and I tried to avoid us doing anything besides cuddling or hugging. She usually initiated everything which was even more difficult for me but I always fought it and she thanked for until alittle less then 2 weeks ago. We got very close to going all the way and it in seemed to complicate things that and us both having alot of work to do in Christ before we should be together and then she broke up with a couple of days later.

Accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior has changed me and for the better. I dont wanna look at women with lust AT ALL and I dont wanna masturbate AT ALL. I choose now to honor and follow Christ and fight these and urges and wait until im married.

BTW Steve I agree ill pray you and I hope you pray for me to.

SteveL
Jul 10th 2012, 08:54 PM
I will keep you in prayer, Jimmie, everytime I pray for myself I will pray for you as well. Good job not caving in. I heard from a brother once that it's all about gaining momentum. He hasn't masturbated for OVER A YEAR. He said after a certain point, it simply became a part of his old lifestyle. We're all different, but I myself am seeing the value in the length of one's purity. When I used to masturbate a couple times a week my thinking would be "Oh it's only been 3 days. I can break it..." whereas now I'm heading toward 3 weeks clean. My temptation this past Saturday was partly counteracted by me stating over and over "I have gone over 2 weeks clean. I don't want to break that nice long streak now." It helped, because I have some + momentum going right now. Whereas 2-3 days you can be like "Eh, what does it matter?"

But of course, everything must be filtered through Jesus and He is the beginning, middle and end of everything we do. I also have to be careful playing the "numbers game" because that's when pride can kick in and then I stumble. The best thing to do is keep your eyes fixed on Jesus and keep moving forward. No wonder the Bible teaches us that being idle is dangerous and teaches us to redeem the time.

Thanks for sharing your personal story with your ex as well. God is growing you!

SteveL
Jul 18th 2012, 09:24 AM
Just wanted to praise God -- I'm just around one month free of not only masturbation but ALSO free of NOT viewing pornography. I haven't hit the month mark in about four months, so it feels really good to be able to say I've stayed clean and pure IN THIS REALM this long for God. I'm definitely doing it to honor Him in reverence. Because if I did not believe in God, I'd be very selfish and give in probably every (other) day, with zero self-control of the flesh. It's been a good month. I'm really happy Holy Spirit has aided me to focus on other things and not fall into temptations. Have I been tempted? Absolutely. Have I seeked God instead of running to the computer? Yes. It has made all the difference.

Now my goal is to continue this, break my previous best of 42-ish days clean. I'd like to hit two months a month from now, which coincidentally (or not) will be the first day of my life where I start working full time. It'll be a good celebratory day... first day working full time and 60 days clean for God!

How's everyone else doing out there? Successfully running to God instead of your computer? No condemnation if you've slipped. Romans 8:1. Just pick yourself up and move on! But I can tell you nothing beats living a pure clean life for God. I repent in other areas of my life, but it feels good not having to repent in this area.

ChristianCoffee
Jul 19th 2012, 02:31 AM
Congrats, Steve: I will continue to pray for you (all everyone else) on this matter.

SteveL
Jul 22nd 2012, 10:09 AM
I thank God for His mercies and grace.

Tonight I nearly stumbled. For the first time in a month, I found myself viewing pornography on the internet. No excuses -- but I went to the mall on Thursday and found myself surrounded by a lot of good looking women who were in summer attire. I shouldn't have made those "second glances" (which is something I'm weak with) because it only added some images in my mind. Tonight I found myself idle, and wandered onto the net.

However, I did not fall completely. For the first time in my life, I was able to walk away from my computer without doing the deed after viewing pornography. I don't know how I did that except for the grace of God. In the past once I start the process it's already too late. Tonight, I started (meaning, strictly viewing), but never did the actual act. I know I still sinned by viewing, but it was a big step for me to be able to say NO and walk away.

I just wanted to confess this publicly. It's amazing how pride can sneak up on you. Just a few days ago I updated this thread and was all on fire. Then I had a minor stumble in the road. Nevertheless, no condemnation in Christ, and I praise God that I was able to exercise enough self-control tonight from fully stumbling. Again, it's His grace. Once I fire up porn on the net I've already lost the battle. Somehow, tonight, by God's grace, I was able to turn off my computer, say NO and walk away.

Thank you for your prayers -- I have no doubt they are helping!

AndrewBaptistFL
Jul 22nd 2012, 12:31 PM
Have you been redirecting your time and attention? I've found that when unwanted thoughts creep in, if I turn away from them and immediatly focus on something else (like Bible study, prayer or work) it's easier than "fighting" the thought, it's more like "abandoning" the thought.

SteveL
Jul 22nd 2012, 03:16 PM
Have you been redirecting your time and attention? I've found that when unwanted thoughts creep in, if I turn away from them and immediatly focus on something else (like Bible study, prayer or work) it's easier than "fighting" the thought, it's more like "abandoning" the thought.


Yeah, I've been told I can make this whole purity thing "too overstated" to the point where I'm focusing on it in an unhealthy way, and only leads to me eventually slipping because it's on my mind so much. I think you're right, redirecting my time and thoughts would help. Thanks for the tip.

justsayin'
Aug 10th 2012, 08:16 AM
Hello SteveL,

Thanks for your honest post.

I have a friend who struggles with this issue too. I feel he is really quite sick of it and is quite burdened by it, but is not quite at the stage where he is ready to give it up altogether. I hope for his sake that day comes soon.

I haven't seen the debate re masturbation on here, but my opinion on that subject is the same as yours. God made the act of sex and the pleasure of it, to be enjoyed strictly between a man and a woman, and any deviation outside of that confinement, is a sin.

Keep praying and calling on the name of Jesus when you feel Satan is coming to attack you, he hates the name of Jesus so much and flees.

And also keep reminding yourself that "God is with you always". God says that in the Bible doesn't he? So if he is with you all the time, then when you feel temptation, think of him as being in the room with you, actually standing there in front of you.
It suddenly becomes very embarrassing to do anything as you feel he is watching you (which he is anyway), but Satan makes people forget that.

I am keeping you in my prayers.

Bell208206
Jul 23rd 2014, 08:52 PM
I too watched porn in the past, and just looking at the testimonies it is clear that I wasn't the only person who had suffered with this sin. It is comforting to know that this is a safe community where I can confess and not be met with condemnation but instructed in the word of God.