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cheech
May 31st 2007, 11:49 AM
We would love to hear your testimonies on how God helped you beat your addiction or how he got you through your toughest moment. You must still be free of this addiction though.

So tell us how Christ helped you to break the chains of bondage and set you free from your addictions (remember...it's more than just drugs and alcohol...you can be bound to depression, anxiety, gambling, etc)!

ChristsCourage
Jun 15th 2007, 03:35 AM
I do have a question before I share my testimony: What's an appropriate amount of time before I can give my testimony?

ChristsCourage
Jun 17th 2007, 12:49 AM
Hello, ladies, and, gentlemen:

My addiction story begins on March 20, 2007, 5:11 pm: I started the topic For any and all addictions, please read, and, I told everybody that I decided to give up carbonated drinks. Well, I feel a few times, and people were sooooo encouraging to me to get back on the horse, and, try again, that I did. I kept falling over and over again, until Friday June 1, 2007: That night I decided to have a soda when we went out for supper that, I told myself that after this, I am not having another soda again. It was an uphill battle at first, that, I almost decided to give in for the last time, and, keep drinking soda for the rest of my poor Christian life. But, GOD told me that I needed to keep going. And, I am grateful that HE nudged me to keep going that I have made it my 15th day, and, going strong. I know thats may not seem like a lot, but, this is the longest I have gone with an addiction. So, if you have any questions, feel free to ask away. I did feel like with each day passing, that, I could go on, but, it was hard for me. I hope those of you who read this are encouraged by what I had to say. Stay strong in the fight for freedom. And, always remember: I will never leave you nor forsake you. Thank you, and, have a CHRIST filled day!!!!!!!

cheech
Jun 17th 2007, 01:16 AM
Sorry it took me so long to respond Dana...I haven't been on as much as I've wanted.

As for the testimony...many will have a difference of opinion on a time frame for giving a testimony. For me, if I can hold out 6 months I consider that good ;). It takes time to overcome things. Your testimony sounds good though and I'm sure it will be an encouragement to many :hug:.

margoose
Jul 13th 2007, 06:25 PM
I had a marijuana addiction for a couple years, but after I asked God to help me in my problems (read my testimony in Testimonies section) my girlfriend helped me get over it and I went without it cold turkey for 6 months, then I did it one last time (October last year) and I couldnt stand myself for a couple days and my girlfriend nearly left me, but decided that I needed the encouragement. I havnt done it since, and I dont want to.

Kingsdaughter
Nov 29th 2007, 04:23 AM
I hope this is in the right forum. I wanted to share how the Lord set me free from unforgiveness.
A couple of years ago the Lord started to speak to my heart about forgiveness and for the longest time, I knew what He was asking me to do, but I just didn't want to do it.

He wanted me to forgive everyone that has ever hurt me physically, mentally,and emotionally.
I put if off and for months, every time I prayed, the Lord would lead me to a scripture verse on forgiveness.

For a while I didn't have any peace and felt like God was distant, even though the bible says He will never leave you nor forsake you.

I was convicted by the Holy Spirit, telling me that I needed to deal with this sin of unforgiveness in my heart and that night I made a decision to finally deal with it. I was praying and said to the Lord " I can't do this in my own strength, you need to do it Jesus and I'm willing to forgive them now.

That same night I turned on the tv and there was a pastor on there talking about FORGIVENESS, coincedence? No way, that was the Lord's doing.

I got out my notebook and started taking notes. The pastor said to make a list of everyone in your past who has hurt you and I mean everyone. Then he said to put a chair in front of you(facing you of coarse) and pretend that person is sitting in the chair. ( I thought that this was silly, but I knew that the Lord wanted me to do it, so I did) then he said to go down the list one by one and tell that person how much they hurt you, and when your done,tell them that you forgive them and you release them in Jesus name.

I prayed and asked the Lord to give me strength to do this and I knew that He was there with me.
I went down the list, one by one, and I spent quite a bit of time on the first two people on that list. I was angry at first, then I cried..alot, but I did it, and when I was done I felt like a huge weight was lifted off of me.

The two months that followed, boy was the enemy and his demons working overtime, because the thought of all of these people kept popping up in my head and everytime the enemy would send that thought in my mind I would say " I have forgiven(the persons name) in Jesus name". or I would say " Lord cover my mind with your blood".

About six months later the Lord led me to pray for these people and I did. I prayed that the Lord would reveal Himself to them and that He would bless them, I actually was happy to do it, I felt joy in my heart praying for them. That's when I knew that I was set free, I knew at that moment that the Lord had broken the chains of bondage to unforgiveness in me.

Not only was I set free from unforgiveness, but from bitterness and anger too, because they both stemmed from that.
Now I am quick to forgive, because I know if I don't, that root of bitterness will spring up in my heart and I don't want that to happen. I will not let unforgiveness take my peace and joy again:). He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world!
So that's my long story. Thank you Lord Jesus for what you have done for me.:hug:

Manasseh's Warrior
Dec 1st 2007, 07:52 PM
Great testimony!! :)

elsa
Dec 15th 2007, 05:30 PM
Thankyou for sharing i tried to send my thread to you but am new to the sught and so it is a new thread and tells about me and my presant strugle to forgive thankyou and shalom elsa

Kingsdaughter
Dec 15th 2007, 05:46 PM
Thank you Elsa, I found your thread and I'm going to snd you a pm. I believe you will be able to access your pms in a week. I will pray for you elsa and I will be looking forward to hearing from you:hug:

KD

Lonman
Dec 23rd 2007, 10:05 PM
My biological father left after I was born so I never knew him, I learned later that he had been a life long alcoholic, and he died from long term alcohol abuse damage to his body. My mother was also a heavy drinker and smoker, and she partied almost every night. She had remarried a man who also had many addictions in his life, including being very angry, violent, and abusive. After my mother divorced my abusive stepfather, she partied for days at a time, and left us alone with no food. She died late one night when a drunk driver hit her head-on on the freeway when she was driving home from a bar. My stepfather died a short while back from a heart attack due to being a chain smoker for so many years. Plus I have many close family members that have had their lives either damaged or destroyed because of addiction problems. Addiction stole just about everything and everyone important to me while growing up and it left me very damaged.


As a teenager, I experimented with various drugs, I smoked, drank, and played with addiction as many teens do. But I remember that when I drank alcohol, the world seemed to be made right for the first time in my life. The only problem was that I would always drink more and more until I got drunk. I quit drinking when I became a Christian and entered the military at age 18. I married and had two children during this time. Around the end of my marriage, I could sense that my wife was not happy and wanted to leave, she was a practicing secret bulimic and very depressed most of the time and it seemed like she was not satisfied with anything no matter what I did to help her. I could not handle all the pressure and strife so I decided to try to escape it all through drugs, pornography, and alcohol, which of course was the wrong way to deal with it. I should have trusted God, but fear and idolatry ruled my life. After my wife left she had an affair with a young man and then got a divorce. My wife married this man who later molested my oldest daughter so my ex-wife hid the children for years in order to keep me from finding out. I really went down the tubes after all this because I missed my kids so much and I felt really bad for my part in the failure of my marriage. I just wanted to not feel pain anymore so I used different types of addictions to get me through a day, and to fight off the constant nagging sorrow and depression that I felt.

I remarried eventually to a woman with a lot of addictive behaviors and habits just like myself. Besides a few normal addictions, she had a serious rage problem and would at times go into violent rampages. Her father had been a murderer, and violence seemed to be passed down to her. I started smoking and heavily drinking during this time and things went downhill quickly. The pressure just seemed to grow and grow until my drinking started to get out of control. I had been in the Air Force at the time and my addiction problems started to seriously affect my job performance and threaten my military career. My binges would last longer than I wanted, and I couldn't show up for work. I ended up being AWOL and was demoted and punished several times. I had to scrub chairs with a toothbrush in front of the very people I used to supervise, and pull weeds at the front gate of the Air Force base where everyone could drive by and see me. The humiliation and shame was constant and nearly unbearable. My rank changed so much that I could have put my stripes on with velcro. Those that I used to manage and mentor now looked upon me with disgust and disdain. It was the most horrible and demoralizing experience of my life. I then went through two treatment centers, and 11 detoxes in 1 year. I went into detoxes regularly with .43 to .48 blood alcohol levels, and almost always, once I started drinking, I could not stop. I was an alcoholic without a doubt. The drug counselors even made bets that I wouldn't live through the weekend.


The military made me go to 3 AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) meetings a day. I also had to go to my Commander's office twice a day to take antabuse (a drug that is supposed to make you violently ill if you drink), but I drank on it anyway, and didn't get very sick which must have been God's grace. After completing the military in-patient alcohol recovery center program, things seemed to have one last glimmer of hope, but I soon relapsed once again. I was "released" from the military with an honorable discharge because of all my good years of service, but basically I was kicked out of the military because I was an alcoholic and could not stop drinking. My second wife got a divorce as well and we parted ways for good. Life seemed to calm down a bit after this, but I felt about as low as a person could feel. I felt hopeless and depressed and just wanted all the pain to be over. Even suicide started looking pretty good, but I didn’t want to take the risk of going to hell if I did it.


I had become a Spirit-filled Christian at age 17, but still I had serious problems with addictions and I couldn't understand why God didn't just miraculously set me free. My life seemed ruined beyond repair, then early one morning I had an experience with the Lord that changed everything. He spoke to me about some things that would soon happen, and I felt hopeful again for the first time in a long while. I then became a licensed minister and went to California and worked with a fellow minister there. We ran a home for the addicted and homeless outside of Disneyland, and we lived with about 35 drug addicts, alcoholics, prostitutes, and homeless people in a 3-bedroom home. The ministry workload, problems and relapses of the people living there, and counseling sessions were non-stop. I felt overwhelmed and quickly went into a state of overload. The fellow minister I worked with there drank and encouraged me a few times to drink as well thinking that maybe I could control it with God's help now I guess. I started to think that maybe I had indeed been healed of my addiction problem, so I gave drinking another try. Dumb move. The problem was still there, and I started getting drunk just like before. This period of time was so disheartening because I just didn't know how to get free from my addictions. I had tried to quit things so many times, but I always just ended up addicted to some new destructive thing. It was certainly baffling to me to be sure. But at the end of my striving, God stepped in to help me.


I went to Canada and got married to a wonderful Christian girl whom I had known while I was ministering in California. The Holy Spirit then began to work with me there and show me how to get free from addiction from the inside out. He showed me why I used substances (pleasure idols) for comfort and protection, and He took me back to the roots of my pain and fear that I was trying to deaden with drugs. Day by day, and little by little, I noticed that I was finally able to let something go without replacing it with some new addiction. I noticed that as He walked me through and healed all my old emotional pain that I didn't need all the "pain relievers" anymore like I used to. There had been so many lies sowed into me as a child that had created deep roots of fear that had kept me deceived and bound as an adult. I learned that the only way to freedom was acceptance of my addictive physical condition, and complete surrender to God's plan to help me, and heal me. God progressively set me free from my addictions one by one until I was finally free and no longer running to some new addiction just because things got tough. His way worked.

Now I have been free from all addictions for a number of years now, and I am so glad I don't have to go through all the hard work and stress of practicing an addiction anymore. I have a lovely wife and a great marriage of over twelve years, and I feel great physically, mentally, and spiritually. I am also glad that if I died tonight, that I would not have to worry about seeing all the terrible things that I used to do plastered up on a big screen for me, the Lord, and everyone else to see during my life-review judgment. I'm glad that I don't have to worry about going to hell should I die anymore, and I'm also glad that there is no longer anything blocking my fellowship with God, or His ability to use me in the Earth. I’m also glad to be free of all my old emotional pain. Your problem may be impossible for you to fix alone, but it is not impossible for God to fix if you are willing to surrender to His plan fully and unconditionally, and to just cooperate with Him. He has helped many people with worse addiction problems than you, believe it or not. God loves you so much more than you can see right now my friend. Jesus said that those that hunger and thirst after righteousness would be filled. That means that God has a specific plan just for you to set you free. You just have to truly want it from your heart, and then allow Him to lead you though it. I promise you that if you really want to be free from your addiction problem, then God will help you to get free. God loves you "as is", but He loves you too much to leave you broken and enslaved to addiction. And with His help my friend, you will stay free from addiction for good this time. Lonnie Mackley


MT 5:6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

Kingsdaughter
Dec 23rd 2007, 10:50 PM
Oh Praise the Lord Lonnie!!! What an amazing testimony of the Lords power in your life. An amazing testimony of His love for us! Amen brother!

DanDMan64
Mar 12th 2008, 09:16 PM
Cheech, I've been waiting for a few months to post here until the "six month" rule was fulfilled.

As you know from other postings at other threads, I was one who struggled with porn addiction for several years, "actually since about age 10", and even though I called myself a "Christian" for most of that time, I often stumbled with this problem and felt undeserving of God's grace and useless for His service.

It was on or about the last week of August of 07 that I had a "re-encounter" with Christ and decided to try once more to try to "kick this bad habit" once and for all, and I'm happy to say today, that even though I've had some close calls, I've managed to stay away from porn and my walk with Christ is getting better and stronger every day.

I want to give credit where credit is due and therefore I thank God the Father, His Son Jesus and my wonderful Counselor The Holy Ghost for showing me the way to beat this thing, and my praise and adoration go out to Him for being faithful to His promises and helping me realize that indeed, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".

This website was very instrumental in His plan to help me get back in "the straight and narrow", as I met many wonderful brethren and "sisteren" who were used by God to edify me either by giving me advise, or by allowing me to be used by God to edify them as best I could, and I apologize to anyone whom I might have hurt or offended during this process as, I was trying to get-up and walk again after a long time of spiritual slumber.

I know the battles will still come my way, but I praise God I have red the end of the book, and I know we have already won the war, and by His grace and through His power I have faith I will continue to persevere till the end and claim my salvation, as long as I keep my eyes focused on my Lord, and continue to not get distracted by the lies of the enemy.

A word of advise for anyone still struggling with any addiction; Getting through it is a Team effort, and if you're truly sincere about beating your particular brand of addiction then you have to do your part in staying away from those things that entice you to betray The Lord, and be aware of the snares the devil will try to lay down for you and don't fall into them, claim the blood of Jesus which is a mighty weapon, and call out to the Father when you feel the weakest and let Him carry you through, be constantly aware of His presence and acknowledge that there's never a time when you're ever alone.

I don't know what else to say, other than staying close to The Lord and living life one day at a time is key, among other things He will reveal to you as you get into His word, (another key).

Never Give-up, never surrender!:saint:

Kingsdaughter
Apr 8th 2008, 04:35 PM
A wonderful testimony brother Dan. I am reminded, by your story, that we are in a spiritual warfare and that our weapons are not carnal, but mighty in God to pull down those strongholds in our life. the enemy does indeed seek to kill, steal, and destroy. Praise God that He that is within us is greater!!!!! May the Lord continue to strenthen your faith in Him and I break the chains of addiction in Jesus Name and by the power of His blood. Amen.

Slug1
Aug 5th 2008, 07:32 PM
Tell People

I have been asked lately, “How do you give it all to God and then leave it there at the Foot of the Cross?”

Our discussion was about sin that we struggle with. We all struggle and if we don’t, we’re just blinded or refusing to admit it. Many give their sin to God and don’t sin that specific sin anymore. They place it at the Foot of the Cross and leave it there. I look at it this way… we all walk a path that God has placed us on and along that path are struggles, some that we allowed and some that God has placed before us. The struggles that God places before us are not sin but instead are tribulations to help us learn, develop, and mature so I won’t elaborate on these at this time.

The struggles that “we” place before ourselves are usually something we’re doing that is sinful and separating us from God. Thus the struggle as we are convicted by the Holy Spirit that we are doing something wrong or holding onto something that is causing the struggle. I could list examples but it would be endless as we all have our own specific struggle(s).

So how do we “truly” give a struggle to God? So completely that we don’t take any portion of it back. For me, I have failed in doing this in the past concerning a sin covered by two words that we find in the Bible… Sexual Immorality.

Failure to give up this sin brought me to a place that God wanted me. Broken and crying out to Him, right at the Foot of the Cross where He wanted me to “truly” leave the sin.

That day I was led to this scripture: Proverbs 3:32

32 For the perverse person is an abomination to the LORD,
But His secret counsel is with the upright.

As I wrote in my journal (yeah, I journal), “I grieve as I read the first part but I now fight to be upright!” I fasted that day and in the evening I placed myself once again before God with my wife and some close friends as witnesses. I was led by this: James 5:16

16 Confess your trespassesto one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.

I prayed to God and laid myself bare before God and confessed it all, nothing was held back from that deep dark closet I had always refused to fully empty out. I had in the past, picked and chose what to give to God and this kept satan’s foot in the door to open later and restock the shelves.

I then received prayer from all with me that evening and I was delivered from my sin and it was “truly” left at the Foot of the Cross.

So, all this testimony you had to read through to reach the whole point of this blog. As I stated earlier, how do you give it all to God? Then, how do you leave it there?

Well, for me and I pray that this helps others out there understand how God will turn our struggles, even our sin into something GOOD! My struggle with addiction to fantasy lust and masturbation has enabled God to use me to minister to others who are presently suffering from this and various other sins dealing with pornography… Sexual Immorality.

But the main question is how am I able to leave this sin at the Foot of the Cross after so many years of being bound and chained by it? Good question and the easy answer could have been, “Because I gave it to God and I meant it that final time.” This didn’t satisfy even my need to understand. So I prayed and God answered me quite clearly…

“Tell people, confession, testimony, allow your failure to be known and be used by Me to help other people and I will use up everything you placed at the Foot of the Cross and there will be nothing left for you to take back”

So, this is how I “truly” left that sin at the Foot of the Cross and I have not taken it back. This is why I am so open about this and remain… free!

Edit: The full testimony is located here: http://bibleforums.org/showthread.php?t=177345

HisLeast
Aug 5th 2008, 07:44 PM
As I wandered through dangerous territory, I stopped to smash something beautiful. He took hold of me, hauled me to the very brink of Destruction. There he held me suspended over the dizzying drop to horror and oblivion and let my feet dangle uselessly. Then he set me down on the safe side, swept up the pieces of something beautiful that I shattered, placed them in my hands and very sternly pointed back to the road I should have been walking on.

I'm still walking there, but I'm holding the pieces of that something beautiful while they heal back together.

cross crusader
Aug 7th 2008, 06:57 PM
I dont think i have ever given my testimony here before, so here is goes i will give you the condensed version.
on July 2, 2004 i gave my life to the Lord. I was an alcoholic, meth addict, crack addict, addicted to cocaine, a womanizer with a list so long it makes me sick to even think about it. I had been kicked out of the US Navy for selling and transporting drugs across state lines and international borders, computer hacking. It is by the grace of God that i didnt end up in prison like 7 of my friends, the birth of my daughter kept me out of that one, and the birth of my son kept me alive. both full length stories themselves. my whole life until then i was good at 2 things, sports and selling drugs. i started out selling drugs at the age of 15. i stayed in the family trade, unknown to my parents who would've beat me had they found out, which when they did i was kicked out of the house. it was easy to cover because i was an all-ohio athlete and no one expected it. then the unthinkable happend, my senior year in High school i broke my leg during football season, my rides went down the drain and my hopes of playing college football went with them, so i turned more heavily into alcohol and drugs, didnt even graduate with my class, had to get tutors just to get my diploma because i had given up so much. so i went into the navy, where once again i found the drug dealers inside the us military, when my mother found that out this is what she said and i quote," Bub, everywhere you go you find the drug dealers." and she had found out because i had brought some meth home from california in a toboggin inside the double lining and in my deodorant stick, a trick not a normal guy would know. so about six months after that i was kicked out. cops and ncis raided our house but i was in ohio like i said for the birth of my daughter. so i get back home and get a regular job determined to put my criminal life behind me when what do i do? get back in the family,(cousins), trade. this ended up costing me my first marriage. after that i turned heavily to alcohol, started doing crack, and coke everyday. although i was still working and functioning as normal i wasnt. i had learned how to adapt. in 2004 i met my wife now, she had put up with my lifestyle, then one night after she had gone out on the town with my sister, i had been out all night with 2 other women and been drinking and doing coke and crack, i devised a plan. i was going to kill her. literally, i was going to end her life that night. But God once again intervened. so as i was sitting in the jail cell that night, god spoke to me. he said and i quote," What are you doing? are you done running?" Four days later, on a friday afternoon in our church i gave my life to the Lord. From that instant, that very moment i was free from every addiction, every bondage, i havent had any cravings at all for anything. no drugs, no depression, no alcohol, nothing. Once we are saved we are free that very minute, we dont need to be in bondage, we are free, we are new creations who never had an addiction, who never knew bondage, we are children of Abraham, not Israel. I have not even wanted to taste alcohol or any drug since. God delivered me instantaneously. you can be too. that is the message when out on the streets preaching or in the churches teaching i found myself telling people, i will tell you what there are just as many people in the church still living under bondage as there are outside. we, the church need to step up and let people know that there is freedom in Christ.

Spirit Filled One
Nov 11th 2008, 04:47 PM
Lonnie Mackley,

Praise God for the work that He has done in your life!

He is amazing, how the Lord can and does change us.

Thank you for sharing this wonderful testimony of what the Lord has done.

In Christ alone,
Chris

baxpack7
Nov 18th 2008, 01:13 AM
I concur with what Brotha Slug said about "Tell someone". Every chance I get, I tell people about my struggle with narcotics and my VICTORY(HALLELUJAH) led by God almighty. The responses have been mixed, but at least I'm planting the seeds. Check out my signature, and may God bless you all!!!

AlainaJ
Nov 18th 2008, 01:40 AM
Wow, what an awesome topic. I have wandered off a bit and now coming back to walk close with God, I can remember how he changed my life.

God and God alone helped me break so many addictions. Before Christ I would have tried everything to be free, I was even hypnotized...lol, but Jesus is the only one who can truly break the bonds of addiction. Satan keeps us in the bondage of addiction, Christ frees us. Jesus gave me the ability to walk away from so many worldly things that I clinged to. He gave me the strength to quit jobs and follow his will even when I didn't really want to. About a year before we began to homeschool, the Lord began to show me that I needed to leave the fitness field that I worked in my whole life. Teaching aerobics and personal training was my addiction, as was exercise in general. I knew He wanted me to walk away and homeschool. The day I closed my buisness adn trusted that God would provide for us on one income..was incredible. The Lord has blessed us so. Now I am a non profit pit bull rescue and I use this ministry to reach peopel with Hid message. But even to take that chance and start the rescue was only possible by His strength.

Gentile
Dec 12th 2008, 09:07 PM
Tell People

I have been asked lately, “How do you give it all to God and then leave it there at the Foot of the Cross?”

Our discussion was about sin that we struggle with. We all struggle and if we don’t, we’re just blinded or refusing to admit it. Many give their sin to God and don’t sin that specific sin anymore. They place it at the Foot of the Cross and leave it there. I look at it this way… we all walk a path that God has placed us on and along that path are struggles, some that we allowed and some that God has placed before us. The struggles that God places before us are not sin but instead are tribulations to help us learn, develop, and mature so I won’t elaborate on these at this time.

The struggles that “we” place before ourselves are usually something we’re doing that is sinful and separating us from God. Thus the struggle as we are convicted by the Holy Spirit that we are doing something wrong or holding onto something that is causing the struggle. I could list examples but it would be endless as we all have our own specific struggle(s).

So how do we “truly” give a struggle to God? So completely that we don’t take any portion of it back. For me, I have failed in doing this in the past concerning a sin covered by two words that we find in the Bible… Sexual Immorality.

Failure to give up this sin brought me to a place that God wanted me. Broken and crying out to Him, right at the Foot of the Cross where He wanted me to “truly” leave the sin.

That day I was led to this scripture: Proverbs 3:32

32 For the perverse person is an abomination to the LORD,
But His secret counsel is with the upright.

As I wrote in my journal (yeah, I journal), “I grieve as I read the first part but I now fight to be upright!” I fasted that day and in the evening I placed myself once again before God with my wife and some close friends as witnesses. I was led by this: James 5:16

16 Confess your trespassesto one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.

I prayed to God and laid myself bare before God and confessed it all, nothing was held back from that deep dark closet I had always refused to fully empty out. I had in the past, picked and chose what to give to God and this kept satan’s foot in the door to open later and restock the shelves.

I then received prayer from all with me that evening and I was delivered from my sin and it was “truly” left at the Foot of the Cross.

So, all this testimony you had to read through to reach the whole point of this blog. As I stated earlier, how do you give it all to God? Then, how do you leave it there?

Well, for me and I pray that this helps others out there understand how God will turn our struggles, even our sin into something GOOD! My struggle with addiction to fantasy lust and masturbation has enabled God to use me to minister to others who are presently suffering from this and various other sins dealing with pornography… Sexual Immorality.

But the main question is how am I able to leave this sin at the Foot of the Cross after so many years of being bound and chained by it? Good question and the easy answer could have been, “Because I gave it to God and I meant it that final time.” This didn’t satisfy even my need to understand. So I prayed and God answered me quite clearly…

“Tell people, confession, testimony, allow your failure to be known and be used by Me to help other people and I will use up everything you placed at the Foot of the Cross and there will be nothing left for you to take back”

So, this is how I “truly” left that sin at the Foot of the Cross and I have not taken it back. This is why I am so open about this and remain… free!

Truly amazing. This was a great read and I will always come back to this at times. I can relate to your "fantasy" lust and the masturbation part. After the act of it I just feel morally disgusted and especially sinful and a let down to GOD. And if I did masturbate say in a strange place, like the my work! yes I know disgusting, I swear something unsettling will happen to me, whether it would be fighting with my wife, or just some kind of minor but frustrating moment. I really think it's a sign from GOD, saying when are you going to learn. I do pray to GOD and confess my sins off porn and masturbating but when I go back to it that whole day seems to be not right. Kind of strange I know.

Lee-Roy
Dec 18th 2008, 04:58 PM
Lot of great stories in here. thanks to everyone that is posting!

CoffeeCat
Dec 19th 2008, 12:06 AM
I wanted to share what God's freed me from. I've shared bits in other posts, but since this is the official thread....

I wrestled for about nine years with same-sex attraction. It was as much of a trap and a misery as a drug addiction is -- I wrestled daily, didn't want it, tried to ignore it, tried to give it up on my own... and prayed for years to be rid of it. I didn't have any peace for the longest time, and I couldn't actually remember what "normal" was, since this seemed to hit so close to puberty. I got depressed, and wondered how on earth to 'get rid of it'. I knew that these feelings were sin. Christ made that clear -- what we intend to do in our hearts is just like actually doing.

So finally I did what I should have done long ago -- I gave up on trying to fix myself, and let Christ take over. He REALLY convicted me in a big way that I needed to give it ALL to Him, and I had to give it to Him and leave it with Him..... and He showed me how to see other women as dearly loved daughters of God... as people, as sisters... NOT as objects of warped affection.

HE broke my chains of bondage when I couldn't POSSIBLY break them, when I was SO fed up with everything I was frustrated beyond. He freed me... and it's amazing! This freedom is still fairly new to me, and I praise Him Who gave it. I wake up every day amazed at the work He did and is still doing, and amazed that I continue to be free of that awful weight I carried for too long.

God's SO good. There is HOPE in Him alone. There's freedom to be found in Christ when we are finally humbled by all He can and does do when we cannot. Day by day, He reminds me of the person He wants me to be, not the sins and struggles I thought I was snared by. If you're also struggling and you feel alone, please remember that there's hope and freedom to be found in Christ. Sometimes prayers take a LONG time to be answered.... but through the struggle, I have learned SO much -- Thankfulness and praise and the desire to reach out to others who struggle, especially.

God's good. All the time.

turtledove
Jan 17th 2009, 04:42 PM
Something that helped me seek help back when I was in my early thirties..was the way I was beginning to feel about myself when I drank to excess. I didn't like that. But I also knew that God wanted me to be a better wife and mother and not be hindered. One day I looked up on my bedroom wall where I had a big poster with a glass of orange juice on it. (This was a pop poster very popular in the late 60's and 70's). It said: "It's Better Than What You Are Drinking Now. "

At that moment I turned to God and asked Him to be my friend and help me. That was my most significant step in seeking recovery - to finally realize I needed help. And who would have thought ... a pop art poster..but it happened. :pp

MercyChild
Jan 27th 2009, 01:29 PM
Some awesome and inspirational testimonies placed here. I am not free from addiction for 6 months yet, but this thread inspired me and gave me one more goal to work towards to. Going for 17 weeks of being clean, and I know that it is only by the grace of GOD!:pp

baxpack7
Jan 27th 2009, 04:31 PM
Amen to that MC. AMEN!!!

RUN2GOD
Mar 11th 2009, 07:58 PM
This is my testimony on how prayer and faith in Jesus Christ, my friend, changed my life from rags to riches. It has been on my heart to share this part of my life for whoever it may give hope to especially ones dealing with addiction in their life. Never give up on prayer and faith, cause I KNOW it worked for me.
My mom started drinking when i was in the 9th grade after a bitter divorce from my dad .After 19 years of marriage, it broke her heart, and that is how she coped. My older brother(jamie) and me lived with her and since i was the only girl, me and my mom grew close. Even though we hated it when she drank, she was really a good mom "when she wasn't drinking". Through our high school years it really got bad, wrecks, dui's, you name it. We never stopped praying for her to stop, though. Maybe because i was a child i just knew Jesus was there listening. I remember we would say if we had a choice between all the money in the world or for our mom to stop drinking, we would choose for her to stop drinking. Well, Praise His Name, our prayers were answered April 28, 1998. You want to talk about rags to riches. Not only did she quit drinking, she quit everything, and turned her life over to God(priceless). She started counsiling other young women going through what she went through. she met a wonderful man, they got married, he calls me daughter.Sounds like a fairy tale, but it's true.
Now it breaks my heart to say that my dear mother passed away suddenly last june at only 58 years old. Even though i miss my mama like crazy, I am so grateful for the past 11 years. He not only answered my prayers then, but because of my faith, i know i will have eternity with her in heaven one day. For that i still wouldn't take all the money in the world for. Thanks for letting me share. God bless you all.

mongoose303
Jul 13th 2009, 12:55 AM
Like some others here I too had strayed from the Lord, although i wasnt involved in any drugs. I was a heavy smoker ( over 2 packs a day for 25 years) and the the same day that i returned to the Lord, Jesus delivered me from smoking, the cravings disappeared instantly. That was over a year ago now and im still free and will stay free forever! Thank you Lord! praise you Jesus! I love you Jesus! I long to be with you glorious Lord!:pp

God bless.

RollTide21
Jul 21st 2009, 04:43 PM
This doesn't fall into the category of "addiction", but it was (and still is, somewhat) an area of bondage for me.

I have suffered from Anxiety Attacks. To some this may sound trivial, but anyone who knows what this truly is understands that it's not just "worrying" about something. It's a completely debilitating episode that is extremely frightening.

The first one that I had was more of an anomaly. I felt a pain in my left shoulder (turned out to just be some joint problems) one night about 8 years ago. I started freaking out because I thought I was having a heart attack. I went to the emergency room and had extremely high BP. The doctors gave me the workup and found that I was fine. I went to a Cardiologist to be sure and all was well. I was fine for a few years after that.

The next time was when I was extremely hungover from drinking way too much during a football game (an Alabama loss...to Mississippi State, no less...perhaps that contributed? LOL). I felt just all wrong and my mind took over. I went to the hospital again thinking I was having a heart attack because my heart started racing and my BP was through the roof. Again...everything was fine.

After that episode, I thought that, since I was convinced I didn't have any reason to think I was having a heart attack, I was OK. About 6 mos ago, I took some Aleve Cold and Sinus DAYTIME before going to bed. This medicine's decongestant is really strong, plus it was keeping me awake (should have taken the Nighttime but I didn't think anything of it at the time). I'm also on BP medicine, so as I was laying in my bed the effects of the medicine sort of freaked me out again. This time, I went into my Den and just sat in my recliner and rocked back and forth until I finally calmed down. At that point, I was convinced I was done.

Well...the Monday before last, I had one that I couldn't just control. I'm not even sure what brought it on other than maybe I could feel my heartbeat and I was imagining that I was having trouble breathing. I tried to walk it off and "rock" it off in my recliner. Nothing worked. I tried to lay down and relax and never could sleep. It lasted throughout the night and into the next morning. I couldn't work. I got kind of an emergency Dr's appt where the doctor prescribed Adavan...a low grade anti-anxiety medication. This has helped some over the last week.

I've gotten somewhat of a handle on the situation, but my testimony is about a Word that I actually received on this forum. I had managed to stave off the attacks during the day, but at night I always would get anxious out of fear of another attack. I was reading on this board in the "Be Afraid" thread one night and someone posted 2 Timothy 1:7...which says "For the Spirit of God is not one of fear, but one of Power, Love, and of Sound Mind". That verse really hit at the heart of the issue...which was fear. Fear that I was losing control of my ability to fight off this thing.

I basically broke down and prayed that night on that verse. I acknowledged that I had no reason to fear. God has already conquered Fear and Death. I am His child and I have no reason for Fear. If I happen to get another panic attack, so be it. He'll help me deal with it because He loves me and will not let me go through it alone. What I won't concede is that the FEAR of an attack will rule my life. I got a great sense of peace knowing that Christ had already dealt with all of this on the Cross and when He saved me.

I still struggle with this, but I am equipped to deal with it, now. I just hand it over to God and He reminds me that I shouldn't worry because He has already conquered fear.

vanguard
May 26th 2012, 02:59 PM
I want to make this short, I was born again in 1979 at the age of 15, I started falling away at 19, in my 20s and 30s I got into drugs and drinking, I came off drugs 14 years ago but keep drinking, I always loved the Lord but was so ashamed, I tried to stop so many times but would always go back, BUT I lost everything and my wife and I were living with my folks when I hit bottom, I heard the Holy Spirit say to me that I had to choose to live or die, I was drinking my self to death for over 24 years, well that day i went outside and prayed, I gave up trying to stop it myself and told God I give up, whatever time I had left was his to use me anyway he wanted all I asked was to be set free from the drinking, That was 307 days ago and i have not had a desire to drink again , I am FREE, after over 24 years. so if you think there is no hope TRUST as long as you are ALIVE there is hope and YOU can find freedom.

John Walker
Nov 23rd 2012, 09:55 PM
I am or was an alcoholic . I started drinking at age 14 and continued for 41 years . I lost everything ! my family ( wife 2 kids ) they wont talk to me . I lost my drivers license for life . I broke my neck after crashing my car while drinking , I almost lost my life 2 other times in auto accidents . I loved to drink beer and drive . One day in 2007 I was painting on this house i lived in . I look at a job by how many beers will i need to finish this project and I was down to 2 left , My favorite a dark mexican import beer Negra Modelo . So I drank them both . I realized I hated the way they made me feel and that was sick . God choose that moment to take that addiction away from me and i have not had a drink since and it's been 5 years now . Quitting drinking was as easy as deciding what flavor jelly I wanted on my toast , the desire was gone .

Golgotha
Mar 1st 2016, 12:45 AM
The Lord Jesus set me free from my commitment to follow Christ and the covenant I made with my mouth to not cuss to rely on Him and the New Covenant all the time for helping me to live as His.

I had picked up the habit of cussing out loud to let off steam at work when no one was around at the warehouse that I had managed for a business. One day, I picked up a pamphlet from Bill Rudge Ministries that convicted me of the words of my mouth. But on the back, it led me to make a covenant with my mouth which I had applied to never cuss like that again at the warehouse or anywhere.

The very next day, I was worse than I ever was before. Thoughts filled my head, "You are not His. If you were His, He would have helped you to keep your covenant."

I had stopped listening to the devil, but being at my wit's end, I prayed to God, asking Him why He wasn't helping me to do this. I had prayed " You know I don't want to do this."

A small still voice; not audible, is about all I can describe it, but I heard Him say "You made the covenant. You said you were going to do it. I made the Covenant and I said I am going to do it. All I ask from you is to believe in Me."

I was humbled that day as He had set me free to rest in Him to deal with my cussing habit. And He did. It eventually went away.

Then Promise Keepers movement came into the valley, leading men to make promises to be good husbands and good fathers and leaders in the church and community, and I became alarmed for my brothers in Christ. I had gone to two Bible studies at that time, unrelated to my Presbyterian church that I was a member of. One group had men that had gone to this PK convention, saying they made promises to each other to help one another be accountable in keeping those promises to each other. They did not make those promises to God, because they know better than that.

The other Bible studies had men that said the opposite of their trip to this same Promise Keeper's convention in Pittsburgh where they said that they made promises to God, but not to men, because men can't be around all the time to help them be accountable in keeping those promises.

I never went to one PK Convention and I know it was about making promises to both God and men. I had seen those seven promises listed, and those are His work that we are supposed to be trusting Him to do in us.

As I tried to warn my brothers in one Bible study, one Catholic/mason said "Isn't a commitment like a promise? Sure it is." And that was when I realized how double-minded I was in living the christian life.

I was led to make that commitment to follow Christ in high school in making Jesus as Lord of my life. I was a believer in Jesus Christ, but my Sunday school teachers seemed to think that more was needed from me to make Jesus Lord of my life. Ever since then, I had been doing the best I can keeping that commitment to follow Christ and failing. I would ask Jesus for help, He would help me, and then I would show my appreciation, by doing the best I can keeping that commitment to follow Christ. So like a yo yo, I was miserable in trying to keep that commitment to follow Christ as it was vanity. Galatians 3:1-3 All those years, I felt like a fraud. Twice I had quit being a deacon because of it.

It was in that Bible Study that I have finally applied what He had taught me about the covenant with my mouth to my commitment to follow Christ and so right then and there, I confessed my sin to that Catholic/Mason brother in the group and said that I will no more speak of my commitment to follow Christ so that my faith in Him helping me to follow Him can be seen as He is the power for living the christian life. He is the One that helps me follow Him because of His New Covenant to me; nothing I vowed.

I have gotten to know Him and the power of His resurrection in following Him when I rely on Him all the time because of all His promises to me as my Good Shepherd. 1 John 3:3 & Galatians 5:1 & Galatians 5:5 Philippians 1:6-11 & 2 Timothy 4:18

I cannot speak of myself of my commitment to follow Him ( John 5:31 & John 7:18 ) if I desire to be a Witness of Him of my hope & faith and confidence and trust in the Son of God for all things so that sinners may also have that hope, faith, confidence and trust in Him to do the same for them, especially when sin has dominion over their lives.

God's words says He will not help us keep our vows, promises, nor commitments. Numbers 30:2 Ecclesiastes 5:4-6 because they are the works of our hands and will cause our flesh to sin for by that vow, promise, or commitment is the knowledge of sin. His work can only be done by faith in Him to do it ( Matthew 5:36 & Hebrews 11:6 & Psalm 100:3 & Psalm 118:8 & Ephesians 2:8-10 & John 6:28-29 )

That is why it is written that the just shall live by faith.

So I thank the Lord for forgiving me of making those religious bondages when I should have been ceasing from my work to rest in Him for living as His; Hebrews 4:1-3 & Hebrews 4:9-11 I thank Him for setting me free and I thank Him for forgiving me for leading others into that same commitment to follow Christ and I had asked Him to set them free in forgiving me.

I lean on Him to help me share what He has done for me so that others may rely on Him all the time for dealing with addictions or habitual sins or just for getting through the day as His disciple since He, as our Good Shepherd, is within us and is with us always. 2 Corinthians 13:5

I trust Him as my Friend in helping me to live as His friend and I thank Him that I trust Him to keep me as His friend too so that by abiding in Him and His words in the KJV, by His grace & by His help, He will have me ready to go when He comes as the Bridegroom to take me to the Marriage Supper to be held in His honor above at the rapture event.